USYD Open Day

So today was a very busy day and pretty fun though I had a few things on my mind from time to time. I meet up with S.Z and Beautiful at 9 in the morning before going to USYD to listen to lecture and all that.

We had free food, and look at the cool things in the Engineering department which I must say I was really interested in. It seem so cool. I meet up with D.H, Y.W, and I.Y who after there chinese class. So much info I got and I realised what I really feel like doing but I know the possibility of me getting in that field is hard cause of the ATAR and all that.

Also today, I saw a lot of people I know though I don't talk to them I still know them. One of the many I saw was this girl named Min. I think I might of mention about her but I DON'T LIKE HER. One reason is because I know she doesn't like me and two cause I am a jealous person and I hear that she likes Ling.

Though, my friends are very comforting as they told me things like I look prettier and all that. I don't see her very good looking but I feel that Ling might think so. Plus she is good in gaming which I don't and that gives her an advantage which doesn't matter cause Ling is mine right now.

There was one person I really wanna to see today but I never did and it felt like she didn't want to see us either. I am being selfish wanting her to be with us instead of her new school friends and that guy she says she doesn't like. If so then so be it. I am selfish.

I really wanted to see my onee-san. I really wanted to catch up with and I want to talk. I just really wanted to see her but from what we could tell she didn't really wanted and was more engaged with the people she is with. I was pretty sad about that and I guess I should be more understanding to her but from what I feel, she seems different. She is getting along with her new school friends a lot now. I don't mind all that but I feel like cause of her new school friends her attitude and all that has changed. It is just a little feeling I have and I could be wrong.

I was so of disappointed and upset knowing I couldn't catch up with Onee-san and I pretty sure until the end of HSC, I won't be able to see her or catch up with her. Well if that is what fate has planned then so be it I guess. I will miss my onee-san until I can see her again in possible 3 months or so.

Another feeling I got, is that Ling and I doesn't seem to be going on the right road currently. It might just be me thinking too much but I sort of think that Ling is losing interest. I mean it is fair enough, I should never expect it last very long but I would be extremely upset to have end the relationship. I guess, I shouldn't think like that but recently his attitude and behaviour is different. You know he sent me home today before he sent S.Z home that says something doesn't it? I don't know anymore. If he is really considering it I rather get it other and done with then not know. If not then he should share whatever problem his has cause I am his girlfriend and I would do what I can to help him. I actually got a lot of question related to Ling and I don't know what to do with them.

I guess whatever happens, happens. I am just afraid that whatever happens would lead down a very painful path. >.< I don't know so many saddening thing happened today and the fact that I am sick and tired isn't helping. I can't even sleep yet cause I got tut homework I need to complete.

Oh well let's get this over and done with. Off to study. . .