I CANT DO IT~~~

I can't do it. 

I can't, I just can't. 

Ling got a really deep cut on his finger today and he showed me two photos which I REALLY didn't wanna see but he sent it anyone. The first one, I saw made me feel uncomfortable and I deleted it the first message from Ling I have ever deleted. Anyway the second one, he sent. . . I threw my phone away from me. That is how bad I can't take the picture. I only got a glimpse of it and I couldn't take. 

I really can't be a nurse I just can't. I can't do it. This time from memory was a closer view so probably was what effected me the most. But still. . . You know how much I can't stand these things. I got to the point I felt tears form but only a little bit. I. . . WHY THE HELL DID HE HAVE TO SHOW ME??? WHY??? I AM NOT GOOD WITH THESE THINGS. I CAN'T I JUST CAN'T. TT^TT