Shed Tears

4 days in a row now.
4 days that I have shed tears.
It seems that this weekend is just a really bad.

I got Ling stuff sorted and I am not bothered by it anymore.
Now it is my dad.
What can I say that I haven't said before.

There is so much and I don't feel so comfortable to speak about.
I tried today, I tired to look positively and smile.
But I couldn't, Beautiful told me to stop and with that I couldn't hold it in.
Tears fell naturally gravity forces it out and nothing I could do to stop it.

This sadness would linger inside for a while to come.
I need to improve on my acting skills so I don't let Ling see it.
Though I really want him to be here with me.
I really wanna just hug him and feel so sort of comfort he would give.

This is wishful thinking, I know I won't see him today.
Oh well. . . I independent, I can keep these emotions together.
I am strong. I am gonna force the happiness out of me.