Own Little World

I have neglected the things that are important to me. 

I feel like I neglect so much things around me and I have missed out on so much information. 

I have been so pre-occupied with something that has troubled me 

that I have neglected to view my friends blog. 

I noticed somethings that seem to have troubled her and I wasn't there. 

I am glad my other friend was but I am sadden that I wasn't there at the time. 

But you know as long as she had someone and she is feeling happy again. 

Then I shall be happy too. 

At the moment I am still finding it hard to. . . 

There is a feeling inside me that I don't know how to express or explain. 

In fact I am not sure whether I should be happy or sad. 

I am just so confused. 

I really gotta sort things out but my heart tells me something different. 

Hmmm. . . I thought about it today. 

Maybe your head is much better to control your life. 

There is three parts of you that control you. 

The body, the mind and the heart. 

The heart can give up when it has been hurt emotionally. 

The body can give up when you are physically exhausted. 

But the head never gives up as long as you are strong willed. 

So why Should I listen to any other part of me when my head would lead me to the right direction?

But honestly, I don't really wanna listen to me head. 

My head tells me not to take risk and not to be adventurous. 

I want to be though. 

My heart is where I feel and where I belong. 

My heart is me. 

I wanna be able to be happy and make the people around me happy. 

I wanna be able to be that light that helps people through tough times. 

However, at times I thought about who is my light. 

Where are the people I need when I want them? 

But this is a selfish desire to want someone near you whenever you want. 

I don't wanna be selfish cause I understand that people have better things to do.

Of course you have the time that you are. 

The person I wanted to talk at the time didn't seem to wanna talk to me.

I was upset and angry but now I feel nothing. 

One reason is cause I am able to get over things rather quickly. 

Another is cause I am confused. 

The situation is complicated and I am not sure how I should take it to hand. 

Maybe I was being selfish and didn't think things through. 

There could be trouble or another reason. 

Some many possibilities. 

I am just lost. 

I guess I should just concentrate on making others happy.

Other people happiness is better than your own at times. 

When you see others smile, you find yourself smiling as well. 

That is a weird thing about me, I think. 

If I see someone hurt even just a little bit I would feel hurt. 

If someone cries I feel like I would cry to. 

If someone smiles then I can't help to smile as well. 

(Though the smile those depend if I am not in a terrible place myself) 

^.^ I am just typing random stuff. 

They are just random thoughts that popped in my head. 

Oh well. . . I guess I better get back to my own work.

I am gonna get out of my little world and help my friends again. 

I am going to. . . do something with my own situation. 

Need to figure out somethings.