Distractions.

Alright since last friday till about wednesday, I had felt upset, angry and stressed all over again. It was just a horrible time. Why? Well during that time I barely spoke with Ling and especially how I left things that night I was freaking out and I start to think and over think and everything was just so unclear.

I started using distractions to avoid think about Ling which ultimately lead me to not study for english exam on the wednesday. I ended up finishing my notes for the exam on tuesday night which ended up being a good distraction as well.

Those days isn't something I wanna recall and I had decided not to discuss this with two of my friends who I know read this blog. For one I don't want them to hate Ling as much as do they now and honestly speaking I don't exactly like the fact that my friends dislike the guy I am dating it isn't a very good sign to me. I am glad that they are honest about it and I respect there thoughts. I won't want them to change there opinion and I doubt they would anyway :P

I did end up telling M.V cause she was sort of there on the Friday and I thought discussing it with her would help a bit. Though even discussing this with people didn't help cause it is something I should fix up on my own and I didn't want anyone to intervene with that which I guess was another reason I tried to kept it to myself.

So attempts in contacting him throughout that period failed, I decided to call him after school on the Wednesday before camp. I didn't wanna keep feeling this way during camp and disrupting a fun event with my friends. I never end up calling him. . . You wanna know why??? Cause he called me ^.^ I spent a bit of time with when M.V and D.H decided to go for camp shopping. Later that night I decided to take that risk again and stay out with Ling as I had missed him and I just needed to be with him for a while knowing that the next few days I won't be able to see him or contact him as much.

My mum now is sort of suspicious about everything and so is my dad so I should be a bit more cautious now. But seriously I need to live my life a bit more adventurous cause like I said before I am sick of being the good girl honestly just over it.

So finally I felt happy and got everything sorted out before I went to camp. Everything was just perfect.