Locked Feelings.

Not sure what happened this morning but my mind and heart wonder to painful memories of my past. These feelings all involved my father and my sister and everything that was related to that. 

I was able to escape those feelings and lock them up like I always do. 

I felt each pain like it was the first time. 

I could feel that I was at the brink of tears. But I forced them inside. 

I would not allow my tears to fall. 

I couldn't let myself feel that sad. 

There was an unexpected occurrence at the train station. 

I saw Ling at the station. 

He was late. 

I quickly tried to lock away that sadness I didn't want him to see how hurt I was at the point. 

I was able to lock half of it back inside but the other part lingered. 

I talked to him on the train a bit as I continued to force the sadness in. 

I feel as if he noticed it, but it might just be me. 

He said look on the bright side. 

I thought about it and Yes I agree I should however this might not be meant as how I interpreted it. 

I may be related to the conversation we had. 

But either way, he would not know what that meant for me. 

I am happy I saw him for a brief few minutes. 

Yup, I am quite happy ^-^