Distance. . .

Is distance good?
Should I really maintain this distance?
I feel that we are falling apart.
We are so close yet so far away.

Recently, I haven't contacted a friend of mine. Even though I see her everyday, I don't seem to talk to her. Monday, I felt something different about her and I though I shouldn't bother her cause she doesn't looked like she wanted to be bother. I decided that I wait for her to feel better and happier when she is she would talk to me. But I realised as I waited I grew distant from her myself. Things happened in past few days that only one of my friends is completely aware.

I began to hide this feelings and and situations only at the time of my distress will I want to rant it out to someone close. First time, I tired I talked to 4 people and among the 4 people there was only one that answer me at the time of distress. From then, I tend to rant out my feelings to her since she has been there previously. But now, I think back. I haven't spoken to my friend in person for a couple of days and I feel distant.

Is that what I want?
Is that what she wants?
I am not sure what I should do? I feel like I should start talking to her but I know if our conversation goes in deep I would let out my distress and that isn't what I want to do. For one she has enough on her end and two I am not sure I want her to know.

Not sure, what has happened to me? I think I am distancing myself away from people. I need to get my act together and not let this get to me. I need to be that happy and positive girl and make everyone smile. I shall be the ray of light no matter how dark my life is in reality.