Looking into the Future

A cool spring breeze brushes against my cheek as laughter can be heard from miles and miles away. Stepping into the beautiful garden as the grass dances with the movement of the wind. Smiles gaze at my from across the yard as I see happy eyes shining back at me with such warmth that I never felt before.

A tall young man stands in the middle of the grass spinning around with a young child in his arm. Both laughing and enjoy each others presences. The man gently places, the child down on to the grass as she dashes across the garden towards me. I huge smiles forms across my face as I bend down with my arms opened arms greeting the young child while she comes in for a hug.

"Mummy," she cries out in glee.

I pick her up in my arms sending out endless waves of love embraced with so much happiness that one could barely contain. Another pair of arms comes and wraps around me, squeezing both me and my child into a heartfelt embrace.

Time stood still as we stood in the beaning sunlight and the light breeze surrounded with a rainbow of colours throughout the garden. In the moment, all that rushed through my head was that I wish this would last forever and I wish that I would give my child the family I could never receive.

I want this as my future. I want to be able to live with the man I love and be able to have a family with the warmth, love and happiness that I have so long desired for. I want to be able to bring up my child in a family that is broken as mine. That is my ultimate dream. I would love to be able to work and take care of a family.

Set goals for this dream:
- Learn how to cook and clean (I would like the guy to know as well but to me I
  feel it is necessary I know as well
- Find a good stable Job where I can work and take care of a family
- Find the right guy who desire the same thing I do and understands how to
  take care of a family

Hehe~~~ Not sure why I am looking into the future. This might not even happen. There is the chance that I would never find the right guy or the right job. There is many different reason why this dream may not occur. But it is something that I want and something I had always wanted. If I can't have a normal family growing up than I can have a normal family for my children as the grow up.

The future awaits how know what lies behind the walls of time. All we can do is walked forward and watch for what lies ahead.

Future, here we come ^.^

Sorry about a weird post, probably mention about wanting this before but I just was thinking about it today. I hope I could reach this goal, it might be far and it might be hard but there is always a possibility.