call?

I found another reason why I hate staying a call with Ling. You see, in the past Ling wanted me to initiate things first like starting call or doing something intimate (don't think wrong :P).

So I still trying and make calls of choose only in my spare time but you know the worst first thing to hear from the person you just called?? The worst thing to hear is. What do u want? Well I know there is worst but seriously. Isn't that nice to hear when you want to talk to the person missed the whole day.

So disheartening. I feel so upset about it and it isn't like it is the first he done this. Probably should mention it but whatever. If that's the attitude I get I might as well not try.

Am I making to big a deal out of this??? Maybe I don't know but still. Feel so unwanted or not needed. Felt he didn't miss me at all. Why did I waste my time thinking about you? Because I care and love him so much. I don't think he sees that. Sigh maybe be just needs space.

Whatever, can't be bother thinking. Need to sleep

Night everyone. =.=