Forbidden

Alright, today I had dinner with my dad cause my mum left for work and so it was just the two of us. I dread what topics would come up but then I thought I would eat slow cause I don't want to seem like I want to avoid him which I do.

Anyway, so a random topic came up about alcohol and how I want to try it however my dad is like no you can't drink if you want to only at home otherwise no. I don't think he thinks I have much self-control cause he thinks that I would go out and drink, getting myself into also sort of trouble. Do I really look like a girl like that? Also he thinks my friends would end up pressuring me to drink and I wanted yell at him saying how dare you say my friends would do that.

I trust my friends with my life, so even if I get drank I know they would take care of me plus I know my friends would never ever do something to hurt me. In fact I sometime feel like do would instead stop me from even finish one bottle of alcohol. Probably be like drink one sip and then they come and like alright that is enough. :P Over-exaggerated, but I know I can trust myself being around my friends and just chilling with a drink.

I know alcohol is bad and if I have too much I would put myself in a dangerous position but it isn't like I would get addicted and constantly drink and become an alcoholic which I think my dad believes would happen to me. It is nice to know what my dad thinks of me. He thinks I have no self-control, he thinks I am incapable of enhancing in the job career I want to choose. He thinks that all I am good for is being a nurse not considering how much I fear pain and how much I fear hearing others in pain.

I am not scared of blood which I have made many believe. I actually scared of the pain that is behind it, I won't be able to take hearing people scream in pain or just watching the agony they have on there face. I can't.

Sigh~ I won't listen to him. If I want to drink, I would. He doesn't control my life. I would do what I like (^.^)