Hmmm, my friend brought about a reason that could be resulting in my depressing moods and it really could be lovesick. I miss him a lot but then again sometimes I feel like he doesn't feel the same way and this is just an assumption I might be wrong. But it feels like that.
I know, that he told me that he has been exercising hard and resulted in not being able to contact me as much. I know it is a good thing that he is exercising and that he is getting healthy and all that but. . . I feel. . . unsure if I should really express it here. I don't know how often he reads this anymore.
I know miss him a lot and that could be the reason for this weirdness in my mood. I mean it isn't the first time it has happened. But it feels like he doesn't seem to feel that way. Sometimes I call and he gives me the replied that I dislike and it just brings my mood down. That is the reason I don't like starting the calls and perhaps I would go back to not starting calls anymore. But right now I guess I would try another time I mean so far it had really upset me 2 times 3rd times the charm I guess.
Ahh so many things that right now has depressed me and a moment ago I was so happy catching up with a friend and talking about BTS and all that. But now something happened and everything just dropped. I don't want to post it cause for now I don't want Ling to know and I also don't want my friends to know. I feel like I talk about him to much.
AHHH~~~ what does he have to do this to me? Sigh~ I feel like I am going into a rough time soon. I really hope that it doesn't happen. Oh well midnight has already struck. I should sleep. Night
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