Night of Worry

I didn't get the best sleep last night at all. Not because I was studying though which would have been better cause at least that would be more helpful. But I was up for most of the night because I could hear my mum from outside my room. I could hear her running in and out of her room and sometimes crying or making some kind of distressed noise from inside her room which is right next to mine.

The walls are paper thing and you can hear things pretty clearly from one to the next unless you are my dad's room which would make the sound travel a bit more difficult. No one really knows what happened last night to me cause I never gave much detailed to it and I forced a smile instead of a look of worry before going into school today.

I was extremely worried for my mum because the reason she has been running in and out of her room was cause she was feeling really sick and was vomiting and all that. I heard her pain and suffering which cause so much worry and distress to me to the point that I felt a few drops of agony tears.

I was on a call with Ling for a while though he was a bit occupied as well with a tenant that was with him and playing a game on his phone. I only mentioned I was worried for my mum cause she wasn't feeling well and that was about it. Even though I felt I might need comfort from him I decided to keep it to myself and also why I kept ti this morning.

I did a little research while I was up and I told my mum this morning to go to the doctors. It turns out that my research of the sickness she might have was exactly the sickness she did have. So now I sort of have to stay clear of her cause I don't wanna her virus (think of biology now) to infect me, especially when trials are near.

When I finally did fall asleep that night, I had a dream which basically reflect my worries at least that is what I think. The dream was based on my mum not feeling well and it ended that she had to go hospital but not for long from what my dream told me. Ling was at my house for some random reason and helping me out at home and my parents knew that he was my boyfriend.

I questioned Ling for being there and he said he wanted to help me out and knew I was really worried that I cried (which I didn't just a few drops of tears not considered crying). Anyway, the dream then skipped to later that morning were he came to pick me up to go to school and my mum was ok with that as well and I guess my dad to but I didn't really see him around at the time.

The last thing I remember of the dream was my dad commenting about Ling and he said he was a good guy but there was something bad about him which I don't remember exactly but I remember I didn't really agree with it cause I knew that it wasn't true.

In some way, I feel it reflected my worry for my mum cause that was a strong part of my dream and another part was the worry of whether my parents would except the fact I have a boyfriend. . . I don't know the boyfriend is still far into the future for them to know unless my mum already knows??? Who knows, but all I care is that I hope my mum will feel better this next few days and that no more bad luck would befall on her for this year. I think my mum has suffered enough in her lifetime she doesn't need anymore.

Yup at least, I got some sort of relief that my mum isn't terrible ill ^-^