Alright I want to just release some of the things that has been bothering me lately and I wanna make this quick cause I have to study for my maths exam.
So today, I met with Ling at the library to study maths and I had bumped into Beautiful. Half the time I was worried that beautiful will feel uncomfortable and knowing that she doesn't wanna see him just made things worst. I wanted to move away so that she won't get bother but she insisted I stay and so I did.
Things seem to go pretty smoothly, beautiful didn't get bother to the seems of it and everything seems fine. But for a while my heart still felt heavy and I just felt something that just made me feel really uncomfortable and upset. I had took a few mins outside for a while just to take a breather and get my thoughts cleared up.
By the time I went back I felt better and everything just went on as normal. I felt happier as well though there was still things that bothered me. Once everyone left and I was the only one there waiting for my mum to pick me up. The feels came back and I just had all these worries in my head and thoughts of Ling just keep popping up.
Yes I know, concentrate on trials. That is more important currently but I can't help but miss him and think of him and worry for him. I can't get him out unless I stress for the maths exam tomorrow. But still guys, I really really really miss him and love him. It is such a strong feeling at the moment just like it was the first time I started dating and just like the holidays during his down period. As each passing day the love I feel for him is stronger.
Honestly if this relationship doesn't actually end up well one day. I will definitely cry a lot and feel so much sadness. Of course if this was to happen I will deal with it cause it is just something I would need to overcome. But I am slowly hoping that this relationship will last forever, I have doubts but I still hope for it.
Back to Maths Study. . . Good Luck to everyone in there trials~
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