Broken~~~

I completely just broke down. I felt it all day and for a moment during my bus trip home I thought I got all my emotions sorted especially after seeing my lovely onee-san. I thought yup I would be fine tonight but I wasnt. I couldn't hold it in. I just broke down. Imagine seeing someone you love that had always shown such a strong side of herself. Someone that you never see break down but then suddenly she has broken down and it isnt something very comforting. I know that everyone breaks down and all that but it isnt something you would expect to just see. I couldn't take it. I ask my sister to help out this time, I told her to go talk to my mum cause I don't know how to deal with it. My sister on the otherhand is very strong and I know she will know what to do.

On the other hand my dad is useless, what kind of person is he. You know he is heartless completely heartless. Instead of comforting my mum he was telling to stop making so much noise and that the only one that really should be pitied was him cause he is going to have a hard life. I'm thinking what the F*** I mean really is that all you would ever care about. He has no sympathy or empathy at all ZERO. HE IS COMPLETELY HEARTLESS. A BIG HEARTLESS MONSTER. I would support my mum if only I didn't break down myself. I need to support myself cause I am complete broken down into my own emotions it is hard to get a grip. I am honestly crying right now and I can't even see if I am typing everything right I probably need to go back and edit everything just to make sure everything is correct.

Alright I finish my little rant I need to finish my homework for tut 2morrow and I still got a lot of stuff to do and deal with. So off I go.

(Sorry I had to swear though i didn't write out the full word so hope that would make the blog post a bit better)