First Love???

I was discussing with my friends yesterday about what had happen yesterday and I found three different responses and it was pretty cool cause it sort of went in an order. So I was talking to them whether I should believe that the first love would last forever and all that kind of stuff. \

My friend, D.H, doesn't really believe that the first love would be forever she didn't say it won't (though we had discuss this before) but the way she said felt as if she telling me not to take it to seriously cause chances of loving someone the first chance may not work out. If you think about it, the chance of meeting someone you want to be with for the rest of your life and that person is your first love, is pretty low though not saying it can't happen cause there are people out there that married there first love and live happily forever.

My onee-san gave me both side of the story and telling me the good and the bad. She makes a lot of sense and I think what she told me I really would take it seriously. Cause this relationship may or may not last but at the moment we  both wanna be together. So I would just go with the flow and if it is meant to be then it is meant to be if it isn't well than I might be one step closer to the one I am meant to be with. (Though at the moment I hope that Ling is the one) With this friend, I had also confronted her with a dream I had and she related both thing together and decipher the meaning of the dream for me. I thought it was very helpful and she does go into theses things which I find so fascinating.

My beautiful friend gave the more optimistic side and I really like that part because makes me a little more hopeful that this may just work. She was very happy about it. Beautiful looked on the bright side giving me the encourage to believe that this would work. I was really happy after talking to her cause I did want to talk to her a while and discussing a these things with her is what we always did and use to do a lot. I love her optimistic views and I think I will be hopeful and say that this just may work.

I agree with both side and part of me really tells me to be safe and put myself on the safe side and not to get thinking that this will be the one. Cause I know my chances of it really being true but I am going to enjoy the now. I am going to enjoying being with the one I love right now and at this current moment seeing him happy seems to give me a lot of joy and I feel that my love is growing for him and sort of feels like the first month that we started dating.

Honestly, I think I might have changed a little bit since the first time dating with him. I feel more confident and I feel like I would be able to be more initiative. I am not as afraid to show that I love him and I really don't know what brought about this change but I am noticing I have become a little bit more open around him. I love where my relationship stands right now and if this could last forever will then I will be pretty satisfied with life. Yup, Smiles everywhere.