Love Forever???

A good day to really think about things clearly. So I met up with Ling, today. I had fun just joking with and talking to him but I could feel that he wasn't himself. I watched him basically all day cause I was worried and I didn't know exactly what to do.

I think people around me know that I really do love Ling. I have also said that my emotions seems to link to his cause if he is upset I don't feel as happy and I feel that I need to do something. The weeks before the holiday started I felt that, we are distant and that we are just at a normal stage and nothing big would happen. Today, I feel close to him for some reason and don't know if I should take what he said seriously. Even at the start of the day he told me to ignore or not to take what he says today seriously.

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You know. . . I really miss Ling right now cause I feel that contacting him would now be difficult and I can't believe how much I can love someone so much. I don't know, at this moment I wish our love can last forever, would it happen? I really hope so cause. . . It is hard to explain but it hurts knowing that I may not be able to contact him as much. . .

Somethings, I want to say but I feel that I shouldn't post it out in public and I want to keep it private and sort of just converse with a few close friends about. So I think I leave it at that.

Lets hope this love last for a long time.