You know throughout year 12, I always had the mind frame don't worry everything would be fine. HSC is still far away nothing to fear or worry about. But there are times when exams come up and you panic a bit but it ends up back to who cares I still have time.
Honestly, I don't have time. One more term left. One more term till high school life is over and done with. All that is left is the final chapter which includes the HSC. It is scary, guys. We are moving away from the stable daily routine of going to school studying, learning, socialising and just general having a good time with your friends. After this we all go towards our separate goals and even though I would be able to contact my friends we won't be able to see each other as often as we did.
Life just won't be the same again. I fear for my future. I really fear for it. I don't know what I am going to be? Who I am going to be with? or what my life would be like? I don't like not knowing and I don't like the change. I don't adapt to my surroundings well and I don't make friends easily. I made one friend in tutoring when I have gone there for more than half a year. That is how long I take to make a friend, but then again I did make one friend on my orientation day to the new school.
But still, life is going to be different and I really gotta focus on my studies cause if I don't I will fail and fall behind everyone else. I don't want things to change. . . I wanna go back in time to the days where we didn't care about studies and we just had fun. >.<
I need to study. I need to improve my grades. I need to gain more intellect. I just need to. I need to persist if I want to have a bright future.
Why did society have to make life for us hard? We should be enjoying our young lives and not be worrying about what kind of future is installed for us. It isn't fair to but so much pressure on us.
=.= That is life, we just have to move on and deal with it.
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