Life returns

How to describe today? Definitely not the best day of all. I wish I told Ling to meet me after school so that we could just hang out for a while. I wish that I could just not be at home so early. Why? Because I don't like being home again. I want that quietness I had before when I come home and no one is home and I am free. 

I don't know I should be happy my parents are home and in some way I am. But then again I am not as well. Just outside my door I noticed that my mum's car has moved and the lock on the wheel is gone. This means they are officially home. I walk in the house and I get pushed back by the strong whiff of smoke. Rushes of the memories of the things I hate all comes back. I knew I wasn't going to be happy. 

Just every minute from one I got home till now brings now joy other than the first site seeing my mum. She greeted me with a smile so happy so lively. It made me feel happy but then again, after a while she start talking to me about HSC and all that study stuff. Sigh how annoying >.< 

Sorry I guess today I wasn't happy at all. I wanted to see Ling, I missed him. I wanted to be with him. Maybe the unhappiness is also the result of some mood swings. . . How knows. Just got get some things done now and shake off this feeling. 

Sigh~~~