Caught Up~~~

So, I finally caught up with my friend's blog. I haven't read for a while due to study and all that. Too much on my plate but I see her struggling at times and it hurts me to see her like that. Someone like her doesn't deserve what has been thrown her way. She knows she doesn't have to face this alone cause I would always be there for her.

Though I must say somethings I don't completely agree with and I guess this is my perspective like she says everyone has there own perspectives and it is varies with each individual. Hope is an important aspect in life and I know what it feels like to hope foe something yet to turn around the corner and get shot down. I know exactly how that feels and how it hurts but I continue to hope why cause it is what gets me through the day cause you think "oh what if this happens. . ." and it gives you that urge to take that risk or to move on and see if there is that slight 0.0000000000....01% that it could happen. I know it is hard and at times I shot myself down before I go overboard cause reaching to high means you fall in further and the pain is even stronger that is obvious. But no hope is not the way to go and you know sometimes 1 in a million chances the hope comes true and you feel so happy that it did and you won't know how to describe it.

Another is about following your head yes it is good it gets you out of trouble but what if your head isn't working. We are human we are meant to feel. We are meant to go forward and take that risks. So it hurts us we must stand up stronger than before and move on with life. Again I know this is hard especially if you have been hurt just too many times and it is hard to regain that balance you had before. I admit I am not strong and if I fall, I fall hard and I try to show a strong side only to hide that weak part. I guess if it comes to my friend her instinct are always correct but maybe there is a reason behind it and maybe the reason isn't to avoid it but to pursue it. Ok I don't know about this really it is my opinion and I probably will never understand exactly how that feel. I don't wanna see her get hurt but I want her to experience something that only the heart can receive.

For now we need to focus on HSC and yes follow your head cause you would need it cause without a head well you won't be doing you HSC very well :P. But after don't always follow your head, you need to let your heart roam and be free let it explore the world. Well my opinion and I am sorry if it might displease people but it is what I think.

But one thing is for certain I want my friend to do whatever it is best for her and not get influenced by other people. You know yourself the best. You have been with yourself longer than anyone else except your mum cause she has taken care of you for that long and experience quite a bit during her life. I just want her to be happy and follow what ever path that would lead her away from the pains she experienced and will experience. I will travel beside her guiding her the best I can or just supporting her when she needs it.

Remember there are still people out there who are different and unique. Like me ^.^ I don't follow any horoscope or star signs and suit nothing of what they ever describe. Sort been kicked out I think. I am pretty innocent and gullible and people can use me and I won't know even know it until I get hurt but that is life. We need to accept that life would throw all kinds of stuff at us and yes we will get hit and feel pain but maybe we will catch it and feel something wonderful. It just all depends. Most people in this world have lost the true meaning of life and shown an ugly side of human kind but among there are those who are still pure within.

(Hehe I went quite deep I think and possible repeated myself. Not to sure but I guess I just typed up everything that came in my head no thought filter of what I should or should not say so sorry if I offend people I tend not to filter this out during this time of the month and I just blurt out random things :P)