I quite sure I made someone angry today but normal I can just go up and say I am sorry. However, this time. . . I don't know. . . I want to but then there is a part of me seems to stop me. I think this is part of my little ego I have. There is a part of me that feels offended and doesn't want to say it. But if I think about it what am I offended about? It is stupid just say it. Then conversation with myself goes one arguing.
I don't like making a friend upset nor make them angry. I am sorry. However, I don't know how I would say it in front of you. I really don't know what is wrong with me today. . . I feel so depressed and feel like an idiot. I hate my attitude today and I feel like I am annoying a lot of people around me. This is usually a side of me, I tried to hide. I don't like the way I acted today. I don't like feeling so down. I hate making people upset or angry cause it scares me. I am scared to lose the most precious things in the world to me. I don't want to lose anything.
I hate myself today. I hate everything I did today. I honestly Hate it.
I am sorry for everything I did. I don't care what my other side thinks. I am sorry. Tomorrow, I am going to return to myself and even if I am not happy, I am going to hide it so much better. I have decided to lock up every negative feeling away from the world. I never going to burden anyway with my problems. At least I would try.
I don't know what I am feeling right now. I don't even know what I am typing. I just want to get my emotions straight. I feel like a mess. The only thing I am clear about is that I hate myself right now. I hate these feelings. I hate what I did. I hate my attitude. I just hate it.
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