I noticed something that I know all my friends would hate and everyone would be saying how and why and what are you doing? Kind of thing. But I can't help it.
See since yesterday I started feeling quite depressed actually it start since that sudden drop of mood on sunday. Every since then I could never pick up that cheerful feeling again. I got some worries that I have but I won't discuss about that. . . Continuing on, when I am depressed I tend to loss some appetite which for me is quite bad. Why? cause I am TOO skinny. Some people are envious about how thin I am and how I can't gain weight not matter how much I eat. That is probably the only good physical feature I have.
Anyway, I have been eating a lot recently. In fact, the pass 2 days I missed lunch though I can't full say I missed it cause I still had some food after school and then had dinner later that day. So basically the time I eat is not normal. I don't eat a lot which might be the result of eating at wrong times. I could eat at lunchtime and normally when I am hungry I would go eat, but I didn't want to go even though I could tell my stomach wanted to.
So the thing I realised is that I think, I have gotten thinner which is not good but maybe it is just me. I haven't check the weights yet which I should. However I did notice that and I was shocked at first cause I though just 2 days. Could I really change in 2 days when normal people try and can't loss much in like one week. I don't know. . . Maybe I am thinking too much.
Gonna check my weight just in case. . .
Well, I checked and I did lose but not a lot. I was apparently 41kg from what my mum said but now I am 40kg. . .
Sigh~~~ I know this is not good. . . I am already underweight and. . . I don't know. . . I will get back on track, just give me time. Let me cheer up. . . Hopefully soon. . .
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