Must Get Out

I need to get out of the house this week but I can't. I am glad that I can escape tomorrow and have fun with my friends. What I don't want to deal with is having to spend the next week with my dad in the house. I know that it is going to be like every other year where he would be annoying me so much and wanting to spend more time with me.

It isn't that I don't want to. . . well. . . I do not want to be with him because there is something about him that irritates me. There is something about him that can get on my last nerve. I just don't know how I am really meant to interact with him. Anyway, I know that this holiday we are going to do something with our neighbour but nothing has been planned yet and then sometimes it ends up with us not going anywhere.

If that was the case, then I would have planned other stuff and gone out with other people and enjoy my christmas holidays. (>~<) You know I always hated the christmas holidays though I still remember the time that I used to love it. When we would go out and enjoy our holidays with some family friends but gradually that stopped cause no one is organise and plan things beforehand. Anyway, then I am stuck at home and not being able to gain a moment of peace where I can just be with myself.

The problem with the Christmas holidays, is that my dad is home for a week and this is the beginning of chaos. My dad and mum would spend more time together while this sounds good for most people this is like trying to join a the north end of a magnet with the south end of another magnet. It is just the more time they are together the more arguments seem to occur and I just don't want to be there when it breaks out.

However, I can't get out no matter what I do. This is still my home and no matter how far I go, a string would always pull me back. I can't wait for the day for me to leave this home away from the constant bickering. I would be in paradise then again I will still have to come back. Nothing I can do. . . I just can't break away.

For now, I will grit my teeth and get through this time like I always done before. I am going to keep myself happy.