I don't know

I don't know anymore.

At first, I was upset with my mum from something she had said about to someone else which made me feel really angry and upset. But the point is I never thought this would upset me this much. Honestly, now I think I am just being stubborn. I just don't want to face her nor talk to her but then I think to myself, why I am really upset? Why did what she said hurt me so much? I mean it isn't like she hasn't done it before and I know that she cares about me a lot which probably the reason she said those things. But what she did, it hurt me. It made me feel so sad and angry.

I never done this to my mum before. I never ignored her for this long before. I could never be angry with my mum for a long period of time but this time I did. I tried to cheer me up but when I saw my mum everything just rolls back I felt like crying and it wasn't something I could keep in. I knew she saw that as well while she was telling me about the dinner plans for my dad and where she kept everything. My mum had a work party she had to attend to therefore she had to explain to me what is happening for dinner.

Anyway, I don't know anymore. I don't like being upset with my mum and honestly I don't remember when I was the last time I was angry with her. Even then I wasn't like this.

How could a few words push me down so much??? I don't know. I just don't know. I love my mum a lot and she means the world to me.

Sigh~~~ I should just let it go. . . I want a hug TT^TT This is when a teddy bear comes in handy and I got just the one I want to hug. ^.^