Honesty.

I don't want to lie to my mum anymore. I don't want to pretend that I am not in a relationship when I am. I want to tell my mum everything. How bad could it be for my mum to know? 

Answer is probably quite bad, especially if she saw my results for english in my yearlies. But I had such a nice sensitive conversation with her. I told her what I want for my future. That I want to get married. I want to have a completely family and everything that this family couldn't provide me. I told my mum what kind of guy I wanted for a husband I told her what I though about my relationship with my dad. I talked to her about the type a guy I like and there are quite a few that Ling possesses. I told my mum about Ling and what I think of him. But I just couldn't tell her that I am in a relationship. 

I want to be honest. Even though we had a sensitive conversation which I love but I feel distant cause I couldn't tell her the truth. 

I am so sorry. I am so sorry, I can't tell you. 

I want to be honest. TT^TT