Worry for a Friend

Ok, despite what my title says I have worries for more than just one friend. But thats ok. You know most of my worries are just very minor and I would not express it normally cause in fact if you are friend then it would be the common thing to worry for them. However, I had to post this because I have a certain worry for one of my friends.

I can't say who I can't really say the real reason cause I know that this information is very personal to her. But, I would say when I glance at her during class I see different girl. I know the reason for it and it still worries me. I hope she is fine. I hope she knows that I am there for her. I don't tell her which I should if I could get the chance but whenever I can or notice downfall in her mood I would immediately try and cheer her up and get her to forget.

I did that today for her. I was in class and another friend of mine noticed something different like I did, so when we got a moment of rest I jumped up and hugged her from behind and trying to be stupid and go hyper to make her smile.

I just realised that I forgot all about my tiredness during that time cause I was too concerned for her. Hehehe. Sigh~ I hope my friend would be ok. I won't be able to see her as often as I usually would and I don't know what the future holds for our friendship cause to be honest I feel that after high school the connection I have with her would be cut off. I had barely able to contact her during the past week and when I finally saw her I was excited and worried all at the same time. I really hope that over the next few months I would find a good way to keep in contact with her for future years. All my friends are important to me and I want to be able to keep in contact with them for the rest of my life.

If you know me, you would know I love to worry (well not love but tend to). I worry that my friends aren't happy. I worry that my friends are sad. I worry that my friends are not feeling well. I worry that my friends hate me. I worry that my friends would get angry at me. I worry. I worry. What I want is for my friends to be happy and healthy and safe.

You know for me. If I am able to cheer up my friends and make them happy, support them and listening to their problems and help them overcome difficult times then I believe I am a good friend. Because to me being a good friend means being there for the person whenever you can and I will always aim for that and I would never ask for the friend to do the same cause it is kind of a given (:P). No jokes. I don't mind if I don't get the same treatment as I give out to my friends cause overtime I know who I really care about and I would do as much as I can to help. Of course if one day, they purposely do something that seriously harms me emotionally of physically then I would reconsider being a good friend.

To sum up, my goal is to be the best friend to the friends I care a lot about, I won't ever expect the same treatment that I give out cause they have there own way or that my way to them is stupid or not good enough who knows. :) I hope I can express to all my friends the love and care I have for them and let them understand that I would do whatever it takes to keep them smiling. I don't know what I would do without them.

A secret message to my beloved friends:

Thank you for allowing me to be your friend. 

I am so grateful to have such a wonderful group of friends that made my life so enjoyable. 

I can't wait for more joyous days we can spend together. 

I hope that I could continue to treat you guys well and be there for you until the end of the world. 

I am crying as I type this cause all this is from the bottom of my heart. 

Cause I care for you guys more than you would know. 

Hope you guys will always be happy. 

When you are happy then I would be to cause it means I did my job as a friend. 

(^.^)