I spent a while with Ling today and I was quite happy that I was able to. I was also happy to be with my friends and take pictures while our school photos and all that lots of fun. I also with Rebecca had made a poem together though I sort of feel we both kind of aimed it at different people even though I think I tired to not be specific on a person.
I named it Worry??? though the poem is a little weird and sweet I guess. I like it though cause it was a combine work with Rebecca. See:
Why do you do this to me?
Can’t you let it be?
my thought are filled of you
My feelings for you are true.
All I want is for you to be happy. . .
I’ll give you anything you want including a puppy.
Everything I do, reminds me of you.
You are always in my dreams, too.
Please don’t misplace my care.
Not sure if we have written more since I don't have the hard copy of it with me at the moment. I was extremely worried today. I was worried for Ling's wrist hoping that he is fine. I worried for a friend who has come to school in 2 days now and missed out on our last school photo together. I worry for my friend about the thing she told me. I have another worry for Rebecca cause I know how much she misses our friend and how much she wants our friend to be well and just to see her. I could feel it and I could hear it. I was touched by her motivation and persistent in trying to keep in contact with her even though she doesn't seem to respond. I am sure she feels it and I wish that somehow she can contact Rebecca and put her out fo the pain of waiting and hoping that our friend is safe. I know but I can't say. I wished I lie and said I don't know anything cause it now puts me in and awkward position and people ask me. But on the other hand I really want to tell Rebecca. I want to tell her everything but I am allowed to can, wouldn't it just make me really untrustworthy and she did trust me with this information.
I felt sadden by my worries and to the point that I felt like crying. I wanted to cry for being so useless and not being able to help the people I care for the most. I know I can't help but I want to and I just feel so helpless? (wish I had a better word). You know, I think that one of my friends did cry today cause I saw my other friend grab her tissues and walk back to her. I didn't follow cause I felt that she wouldn't want that attention so I just let my other friend take care of her for the moment. I really did wish I was able to comfort her but I felt that I wouldn't have helped much if I went over. Though I am assuming this cause I didn't actually see her cry.
Sigh just so many things happen both good and bad all in one day.
Right now, I feel happy that I have a wonderful BF that makes me smile though can be irritating especially when he took my phone again. However, overall he is someone I love so much and I care about so much. That is why I worry for him and that is why I can stay up all night to accompany him no matter how tired I am. I say this cause recently I sleep late just for the sake I can keep him company on our skype call.
I feel happy that I have wonderful friends around that cares for me as much as I care for them. I so happy that I know a friend that would be so persistent in trying to help our other friend and so persistent in trying to keep in contact with her. It really show how she is such a good friend and anyone ever meet her and become friends with her will all agree. She is the most beautiful and wonderfulest girl in the world.
Though some part of me show so much worry for both Ling and one of my friends. That part could just make me cry right here, right now but like I have been doing the entire day I would hold onto my emotions and not let it fall. But this worry is sort of a good thing cause this is how you know I really care and love them. So don't worry about me worrying that is my why of showing affection. Though if you worry about my worry it probably means you care and love me too I will be grateful. So be worried for me, MWAHAHAHA~~~ Jokes. Don't worry only I can. ^.^
Not sure if we have written more since I don't have the hard copy of it with me at the moment. I was extremely worried today. I was worried for Ling's wrist hoping that he is fine. I worried for a friend who has come to school in 2 days now and missed out on our last school photo together. I worry for my friend about the thing she told me. I have another worry for Rebecca cause I know how much she misses our friend and how much she wants our friend to be well and just to see her. I could feel it and I could hear it. I was touched by her motivation and persistent in trying to keep in contact with her even though she doesn't seem to respond. I am sure she feels it and I wish that somehow she can contact Rebecca and put her out fo the pain of waiting and hoping that our friend is safe. I know but I can't say. I wished I lie and said I don't know anything cause it now puts me in and awkward position and people ask me. But on the other hand I really want to tell Rebecca. I want to tell her everything but I am allowed to can, wouldn't it just make me really untrustworthy and she did trust me with this information.
I felt sadden by my worries and to the point that I felt like crying. I wanted to cry for being so useless and not being able to help the people I care for the most. I know I can't help but I want to and I just feel so helpless? (wish I had a better word). You know, I think that one of my friends did cry today cause I saw my other friend grab her tissues and walk back to her. I didn't follow cause I felt that she wouldn't want that attention so I just let my other friend take care of her for the moment. I really did wish I was able to comfort her but I felt that I wouldn't have helped much if I went over. Though I am assuming this cause I didn't actually see her cry.
Sigh just so many things happen both good and bad all in one day.
Right now, I feel happy that I have a wonderful BF that makes me smile though can be irritating especially when he took my phone again. However, overall he is someone I love so much and I care about so much. That is why I worry for him and that is why I can stay up all night to accompany him no matter how tired I am. I say this cause recently I sleep late just for the sake I can keep him company on our skype call.
I feel happy that I have wonderful friends around that cares for me as much as I care for them. I so happy that I know a friend that would be so persistent in trying to help our other friend and so persistent in trying to keep in contact with her. It really show how she is such a good friend and anyone ever meet her and become friends with her will all agree. She is the most beautiful and wonderfulest girl in the world.
Though some part of me show so much worry for both Ling and one of my friends. That part could just make me cry right here, right now but like I have been doing the entire day I would hold onto my emotions and not let it fall. But this worry is sort of a good thing cause this is how you know I really care and love them. So don't worry about me worrying that is my why of showing affection. Though if you worry about my worry it probably means you care and love me too I will be grateful. So be worried for me, MWAHAHAHA~~~ Jokes. Don't worry only I can. ^.^
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