The more you think, the more random scenarios that pops up. I don't know what is going to happen in the future but I do know what I want in the future. I telling myself not cry and I am trying really hard. Sort of working but I feel kind of depressed as well.
I shouldn't feel depressed cause I don't know what is going to happen later. I don't know if everything I am thinking about right now is like going down the drain and everything would remain just as normal and nothing would change. Wouldn't that just be wonderful? I don't like change. I want to feel safe and comfortable and happy with the people around me. I want the people around me to feel safe and comfortable and happy. I want those fairy tales lives which I obviously know would not be true.
Cause think about it realistically, there is no magical happy endings in life. You have to work hard at times and sometimes really hard.
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Alright this post would sound confusing to most people cause I don't think anyone understands what I am talking about. That is fine, because I don't really want to reveal it. I just feel a little alone and a little sad. I hope that the person I am thinking of would be fine and happy and don't get to stressed out. I, in return, we keep to what I said. I won't cry. I would be happy cause then I can hopefully keep him happy.
Yup that is what I will do. . . Smile. . . and study haha forgot I still got one more exam left. I alright off I go. Study for chem =.=
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