Nothingness

I feel empty. 

My happiness has all been washed away. 

There are still pieces left behind.

I really don't know what I feel right now. 

I sort of feel really unhappy and angry.

But then I am just like who cares just move on with it already. 

I sensing a lot of negativity in me. 

I want to tel myself off. 

Telling myself to:

 Stop being stupid. 

Stop acting like a child. 

Stop fussing over these things. 

Ling heard everything last night and in some way I wish he didn't hear it. 

Cause I feel like it was stupid of me to get angry over such trivial matters. 

I feel stupid for even crying over such stupid matters. 

I wonder why I did it. 

Why do I have to go cause trouble?

Why did he have to cause trouble?

Why did he insist on control every aspect of my life?

I need to break free. 

I need to be independent. 

I need to not little these little things bother me. 

Sigh~

I want to hug some people right now. 

But they are not around. 

Oh well, I would have to cheer myself up. 

Get to work and I will forget about everything.

I have to.

I won't let my dad ruin my mood or any part or my life. 

Once I am at age, I will make my own choices. 

He can't stop me, ever.