Saturday, 1 June 2013

Don't make decision for me!~!~!~

We all have pressure from our parents on what we want to do or be when we grow up but does everyone have a parent that is so stubborn and wouldn't listen to anything you say. We should be able to live our own lives and make our own choices while making a few mistakes along the way but that is how we will learn and grow. I understand when they say I am trying to help or pushing you on the right path well to me not everything they say is the right path. BUT I WANT TO MAKE MISTAKES, I WANT MY OWN LIFE THAT I MAKE MYSELF.

It all started the minute I walked in the front door, I was tired and quite please with the day I have had so far. 
" Your dad and I are arguing. . ." The minute I hear this, I was thinking 'not again, I don't want to get involved in this' but hearing she tell me about what I wanted to do in my future I knew that I had to get involved. I told my mum I don't want to get involved and I am just to tired to care right now but once I got up I immediately start arguing with my dad about how much I want to become a primary school teacher or high school teacher would be fine to. My dad wouldn't listen me though no matter what I said and insisted on pushing me towards studying nursing. As the arguments continued a felt tears beginning to well up in my eyes but I refuse to let it out and suck it up and let it be. My mum called me down to eat some wontons and the minute, I start the same topic with my mum tears just came streaming down and I had no control over it. My dad joined us downstairs and continued to give reasons why I should be a nurse but to me all does reason is just his way of telling me that I have no ability to achieve my own goals and that he doesn't believe in my own choices. The more he went on the more tears that would drop down as I come to realised how stubborn my father is (which I am in a way). I decided that I couldn't stay in that kind of environment any longer therefore left over 2 wontons which I refused to eat and passed to my mum and back to my own room. 

As always, I would jump on my laptop and log on to my social network site where I noticed Ling online. Knowing that talking to him will make me feel calmer and happier therefore starting a conversation with him which led into a call. At first I was sure if I should mention the fact that I was crying to him be he had noticed a change in my voice and the constant sniffing which at first he thought I was sick. I honestly told him about what has happened and my situation as always he stay there comforting me and cheering me up. My dad decided also take up some of my time giving me a sort of lecture of why I should be a nurse which never went in my head cause I don't care about what he says anymore. I am going to make my own life choices and there is nothing he can do to stop me, I think. . .

Listen follow your dreams. Don't let your parents make decisions for you. Make your own decisions. Make your own mistakes. Live your own life because that is the only way we should live.  

Must Remain HAPPY & POSITIVE @^v^@
Thank You, Ling. You have cheered me up a lot. Mwah~~~ Love You. 

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