Relief and Motivation!

Our timetable cycle goes through a 2 week period and since every fortnight we have either a pastrol care or assemble. Today was one of our fortnightly pastrol care lessons where our teacher showed a motivation presentation. I knew she disliked teaching our year during pastrol care as most of our year are rude, loud and not the best students of the school. Of course not everyone in our year is like that like my friends, a few other girls and me (^.^) but overall our year is. . . well quite immature and separated as a group. 

Back on topic (:P)

During this pastrol care lesson, I watched 3 videos talking about motivations and steps to take to be successful. It really gave me a deep insight about what I need to do to achieve my own academic and personal goals. Just by spending that lesson watching and learning about motivations I realised how much I need to improve my study skills and learning methods to reach where I want to go. However I feel like I am lost in a way cause now I completely have no idea what career I want to head into anymore. Even though I dislike my dad for not believing in me and everything else he has done to my family but even so he has pretty decent to me, so I don't exactly want to disappoint him nor give up more own goals. However putting that aside, I am starting to have second thoughts about primary school teaching. I mean I still want to be a primary school teacher it is just that I learn that it is hard finding a job after university which is a big concern for me. I don't have the confidence in being a high school maths teacher as I don't believe have the control over student in there teens of course if I followed those steps to success I might be able. Anyway If I become a nurse as my dad is pushing me towards which I know I cant do as I fear watching people's pain or other peoples depression. Since I was young when I seen someone cry I would be able to feel tears swelling up in my eyes and it is something quite hard for me to control. It kind of sounds like I am a empath which sounds like a perfect person for a social worker and I consider that before but I don't know about the pay rates or if it is a good job for me to even enter. 

Keep going off the topic I want to talk about (=.=)

Anyway, If I decided to be a nurse I rather enter the career of a midwifery or the ones that in the therapy centers helping people to learn how to walk again which sounds quite interesting to me. Hopefully none of these would include anything with needles but I think it does (>~<). I am completely lost for my future career, but there are people that are equally lost I guess it is a tough time. 

Other than feeling motivated and lost at the same time I was be able to breathe a big sigh of relief after finishing and handing in my assessment Vv and I completed. There was a few stressful moment when we forgot a component in our assessment and rushed to complete it during the class before handing it in to the teacher. *phew* lucky for us which I hope we get a decent mark for it. Well that was basically my day feeling a mix of Confusing, Relief, Motivation and a little Stress. Such a messed up day oh well 

Hope everyone else out there had a great day including my lovely friends and Ling, my honey. >v<