Something Changed

So today was a busy day cause Ling, my sister and her BF, IK, came over to help my mum move some furniture so we are able to buy a new sofa. Everything was going great, they boys moved things while my sister and sat back and watched. My mum trying to help as much as possible but with her injury and her age it was not a lot she could do.

After we had lunch and conversed with each other and it was fun. We had Yumcha and everyone seem to have fun. A little problem occurred when Ling wanted me to come home with him for dinner to eat steak but then my mum said my dad wanted to eat hot pot and it is lonely for them if it was just the two of them. I didn't want to be caught up in this situation so early after our little quarrel before but Ling was being a good person and said I should have dinner with my mum knowing my struggle.

This isn't what is bothering me though. Today, I was being the best person I can hoping Ling was mad anymore and I could get him to be like himself before. But you know after lunch, we sent my mum home and we left for Ling's house for about a couple of hours. We slept for most of the time but the whole time I was with him. . . Something was different between us. Maybe it was what happened to nights ago or maybe it is just me but. . .

I don't know, imagine if you have a love gauge for ur relationship and there is a line for each stage of how your relationship is progressing. Well if you imagine that love gauge and it was pretty high and everything is going great but then. . . something happened between you and him. It could be a fight, or just something else that was different from before and you feel this distance a bit. You look back at the love gauge and it seems as thought it dropped down quite a bit. . .

I don't know if I am making sense or not but I just get the feeling or love isn't as strong as before and I am a little worried. I don't want anything to change between us at least not for the worst. I want to be able to be like before or lovey dovey. . . not that we weren't today but it was different less closeness and intimate. . . Mentally I guess. . .

Sigh. . . Maybe I am thinking too much.