First time in 3 years

Well so recently everything has been going fine between Ling and I. All my worrying and depression have all gone and today something happened that I felt might have just restore most of the damage from last time. You see, Ling have invited me to lunch with his family to celebrate his Aunty's bday.

So I arrived later than I was meant to cause I slept in but still I arrived around 11. Knocked on the window like I always do and everything was good and happy until I arrived at the front door. He came out and everything on his face told me everything wasn't good and happy. For the first time I see him cry so much and his eyes so red something that normally fits me but it wasn't on me this time.

I was worried that I shouldn't have come and that they were made cause he invited me but inturns out to be something different. It was the first time, I have seen this what Ling calls it his "Weakest side" and it was the first time I sat there comforting him hugging him and consoling him until he was back to his normal self. 3 years and I have never seen this side of him and I know I have heard him over the phone and everything but never seen it in person.

I felt so happy yet sad to see him this way. Happy not in a bad way but more that I was able to be next time in his time of need and there so I can comfort him and make that moment better than it would have without me. I was obviously sad to see him so depressed and it has been a habit for me to cry when I see other cry. Not sure why I do that but I tend to cry just a little while after someone else cried.

For example year 7 in high school my best friend started crying, can't remember the reason but because of that I cried and I don't even know why I cried so I just made up something so that it seems like I am crying for a good reason. Hahah... I don't know why I cried back then or cried today but it is just what I do. Maybe it is empathy feeling the pain or sadness someone else does. . . Not to sure but I cried with Ling, less then he did cause I tried to stay strong and positive for my love.

But I am glad I could have been there to help him. I felt even happier I was with him when he told me that today it made him feel more certain that he wanted me as his wife because of my presence during his time in need. This and or intimacy I felt with him today made me sure that today restore all or most of the damage from our last fight. :)