Ticket Buying

I was meant to blog about this on tuesday but. . . I don't remember why I didn't. Anyway, so tuesday was a busy day for I don't know how much I even study probably not a lot. In the morning I was meant to go for passport photos however, I was really tired in the morning and I couldn't be bother getting up so easily. My mum was really busy that day as well so we ended up not taking any passport photos.

So after my mum sent me to the lib, Ling wanted me to accompany him to this place in Auburn so I travelled to Lidcombe met him before going to Auburn. It took a while at Auburn and I was late for a meeting with my onee-san and D.H as we had planned to go search ticket buying place. But when I finally got there, I felt ignore. It might be my fault for being late and I guess it was a girl thing and they might not want Ling. I guess I can understand that but it has happened more than once.

I want to speak my mind here, so to be honest even though I am with Ling and my friends I don't like being ignored or feel left out. Just cause I am with Ling does not make me any different so I don't understand why I am being left out of conversations. I don't know. This is a one way argument really. For me I like that if I am with Ling and my friends that they would not complete exclude and say that they wanna give us space. If we wanted to space we would have back away a little or said something. But then, I guess in other view that they are trying to be nice give couple some time together or maybe they are not that comfortable with Ling or . . . I can't remember any other reasons at the moment.

Point is I noticed a lot of times I am a little exclude in conversation with Ling and I don't know if this relates but most the times it is with. . . a certain someone that I am exclude in conversation. I think it start around this year cause before I don't think it have happened much.

Anyway moving on, I was walking with Ling behind the other two and I decided to just ditch them cause for one I wasn't getting include and probably won't contribute much since I get ignore a lot. So Ling and I went for lunch where I later met S.Z and M.V. The 4 of us walked back to the lib and with them I felt more include which made me feel quite happy again. On our way to the lib I bumped back into my onee-san and D.H and they were going to another place to check. I was thinking if I should say I would go to but I felt a little depressed about the fact of being excluded before and even though I know I won't if Ling didn't come along. It was just feeling exclude doesn't make you feel like you are wanted so I just let them go and went to the lib to study a bit.

Ling half way through went to the dentist and during his absent I got a call from Onee-san of getting tickets and all that so I left everyone to go to where they are to buy tickets. I knew they were gonna comment on how I didn't go with them and I knew they were probably not very happy with me. It made me feel sort of bad even though that didn't really say it. But understand at the time, I pretty upset cause I don't like being exclude reason why I wanna try to include everyone but it is hard sometimes when you have a big group one person is bound to feel exclude.

Anyway, so I went there we brought the tickets and I remember I mention very briefly about how come they keep excluding me and they told me giving me space or they said they don't like him (??? I think. Not to sure about it). The things made me decide not to really tell them how I really felt about it and I just let it go. That is probably why I haven't really blog about it.

I guess the main point of the post was meant to be that the Korea Trip is confirmed especially now we got the plane tickets and I am very happy about that and excited. My first alone adventure with friends. Yay, I can't wait. I know at this trip I won't be exclude or ignored mainly cause I would be pretty nervous and cling to them ^.^