I believe it was friday, when I was feeling really depressed and no one really knows about it except one cause we happen to speak on that day. I wanted to post about it that night but I was feeling unwell due to the cold I got and my fever had been fluctuating a fair bit. Yesterday, I forgot about blogging and focus more about recovering so I never had the chance to blog.
Today, while I was studying I thought I need break to hear I am blogging about my depressing feelings on Friday. In fact, I don't know why I was so depressed that day maybe it was my cold or maybe I was in a happy mood not really sure. But I was really upset and I didn't wanna go home. I cried twice during that day both time was when I was by myself and no one really knew about this.
The first time was in the library while my friends had tutoring, tears randomly appeared and I fight it off. For one crying makes me nose more runny and I really didn't want that when I am sick. Another reason was that I didn't wanna cry in public so avoided and got rid of the tears rather quickly.
The second time I cried was when I parted with Ling and S.Z. I felt really depressed and tears just came streaming down the minute I turned away and walked off that day. I couldn't hold it back and I feel as if people might have thought I broke up with my BF or something. But I was just feeling pretty depressed.
Overall, it was a pretty bad day and not many people realised I was upset and mainly cause it was easier to hid when your sick and so people would believe the cold is getting to you. That was just a one time thing. I felt much better the days after it thought my cold is still present and annoying but I am getting better. ^.^
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