Disappointed

I have to say this. I don't know if I would be able to say to you cause I just don't know how I would tell her. But I am sadden by the fact that when you tell someone you will go somewhere but then you then you don't end up going. It is fine if you have something you have to do like some family problems or something like that. But if you made plans with someone and then you decide to go out with someone else then that is what makes me feel upset.

One thing that hurts the most is if you back out on a plan with a friend and instead go out with another guy whether he is a friend or a guy you like. I am sorry but that is just. . .  I don't like it. I don't wanna be a hypocrite so I am wondering if I ever done that to my friends. I think I have thought about it before but I never did cause I felt really bad for doing that.

I know the person who reads this would know who I am talking to and I gonna be very honest. You made me feel really upset and almost angry that you would make plans over something you agreed to do for at least 3 times and I can least them. To me, it tells me that you think that this other person is more important or someone you rather spend time with and reason one I feel so upset and angry about it.

This might not be how you think or you didn't plan to make it seem like that but that is how I felt about it. I really. . . Don't worry, like everything else that happens to me I will get over this and I will still support you in whatever you do.

Am I a little selfish? Wanting someone to keep with their plans. Maybe I should be happy for the person who is happy in her decision in who she wants to spend her time. I don't wanna make the persons I care about unhappy and if she is happier spending her time with whoever she is with then I guess I can't do anything about it.

AHHH~~~ I am sorry. I can't see both sides to this cause I feel a lot more disappoint, sadness and anger to think that I might be wrong or a bad friend or I am just being a selfish or spoilt. BUT. . . I. . . Whatever. . . People have different views and I am just ranting on.

Hope she has fun today and that I didn't make her feel pressured or stressed or upset cause of my honest opinion. This your choice don't regret whatever you do and I still support you cause I still wanna be a good friend. I shall go back to my own study.