Be Strong. . . FAILED

Alright so for some strange reason my dad was SUPER angry today and 

because he heard my mum is sending my sister to the airport. 

I don't understand, why he is so pissed. 

But I told myself, be strong don't care what is happening. 

Doesn't affect you and all.

I was strong. 

I kept myself distracted and I had Ling, 

he had me distracted with his happiness. . . 

It only lasted so long. 

At one point I heard my dad next bashing something 

which I expect to be my mum's laptop.  

I rushed out cause I need to defend my mum that is what I thought.

I walk out of my room and was what is happening. 

My dad yelled at me not to make him angry and 

I put my hands up trying stay say and keep him from yelling at me. 

Once he left I went for my mum check if she is ok.

Later I went back into my room and resumed my distraction mood. 

Didn't last long. 

More yelling came from outside. . . 

A lot more non-stop, threats and everything. 

I got scared. 

I broke down after trying so hard not to.

Tears form in my eyes I held it in as long as I could, 

trying not to let Ling notice (which he apparently noticed). 

Yes I cried. 

I was scared. 

I stay in my room and I didn't know what was happening outside. 

There is things that might have happened and I don't wanna mention it here.

I failed at being strong. 

I let it get to me and cried though part of me is glad Ling was there to lift me up 

but then I wanna just cry as well but I couldn't.
I had to be strong.

Gosh it was just too much. 

I don't know how to go on.  

I gonna go back to distraction mood. 

I wanna go into happy land.