Snorlax and Torchic. Ling and Me

Today I was trying to pass the time since it is the holidays and I have nothing much to do though I should be studying come to think of it but oh well. I remember having conversations with Ling about how he thinks he resembles Snorlax from Pokemon while I somehow resembled a Torchic which I don't think so but oh well. Not only did he think so but my friend D.H thought I looked like it too sadly I have to accept the fact that apparently I look like a Torchic (T^T). I guess it is still cute and as long as I am Ling's Torchic than I will be very happy and I won't care that I resemble a Torchic. So I decided that I would draw a Snorlax once I finished I thought "Hey, why not try and draw a Torchic. Probably won't turn out right but who cares lets give it a go." Therefore I began drawing a Torchic and it actually turn out to be quite good. I am so pleased with the drawing I don't think I ever drawn something better than this. So here it is:

Snorlax (Ling) and Torchic (Me)

Aren't they SO cute? I Love the drawing so much of course not as much as I Love Ling but this drawing is of us in Pokemon version. Hope you guys agree with me and like the drawings as much as I do.
Bye-bees

Feeling annoyed and frustrated.

My heads a mess today. During dinner, I want to have a nice conversation with my dad because I know how much he cares about me and I should try to be nice towards him even though I find him very annoying. But the topic I began with about alcohol drinking limit and that I wanted to try a little bit seem to have move towards what I should be when I grow up. This topic annoys me a lot cause I am already not sure what I really want to become anymore furthermore my dad just keeps mentioning that I  don't have the ability to become what I want to become. He doesn't believe in me which kind of depresses me. I thought parents were meant to be supportive and encouraging but I guess every parent is different. There is just to much worries for a teenage girl. We should be living a carefree life and enjoy every minute we have as younger teenagers before we turn into an adult. My fault partly, I worry to much and probably because I have no confidence in myself that I can do something correctly. I am always causing some kind of mistake here and there and stumble everywhere I go.

I need a hand to help me, I need a shoulder to lean on and I need someone to truly believe in and not just saying so to make me happy. Starting to wish to live in my fantasy world again where I am have no worries and have control and confidence in everything I do but no one's life is that perfect. It is just life and I guess I need to learn to start accepting that fact and just deal with it.
I should give the hand to help myself, I should lean on myself and I should be the one that truly believes in myself. I need to be more independent but it is easier said then done. (sigh) My heart feels heavy. My mind is in a mess. My emotions are going crazy. I have nothing under control.

Pray that I can get pass another to what seems like a start of a depressing weekend again(=.=).
Bye-bees.

A Festive day

Today was the School's annual festive day, where we begin with church in the morning before we have the rest of the day doing what ever we like until 2:30. The previous years, the school held a talent quest after an hour and a half of free time for ourselves but this year it was going to be different. This year our school planned a whole range of activities and foods for us to spend our entire day as the talent quest has been moved to another day further through the year.

Unlike last year, our group didn't really plan anything or plan out what we would do. I remember I enjoyed my first festive day in this school however every year I felt it has gotten worse and worse. This year. . . well it was different however I spent most of my time sitting with a small group of our friend as most went off wondering. I didn't do much except eat some snacks which D.H kept wanting me to eat more of the lollies as I was busy doing some texting. I didn't want to eat any as I was full however to stop her from annoying me I agree to eat one. Towards the end of the festive day, I spent it with Rebecca wondering around the school before we ended up in the library playing chess which may sound boring but out of the whole day I find that this part was the highlight of my day. The school held dance comps, Karaoke comps, Showbags, lots of food and drinks and games including a jumping castle. The day was quite expensive and I didn't spend any money there however I became very hungry after the day ended.

I traveled home with M.V and C.t but not before we went around the area to buy some food I brought the most as I was starving. Overall, the day has been. . . not bad. I woke up this morning a little lazy tried to brighten up the morning, even though it has been cloudy all day, however my friends didn't seem to respond to me therefore I spent the rest of my day being quite dull. Our mass was surprisingly amusing as D.H and I were kind of having some fun of our own and I know it isn't good to do it in mass but it was a little boring. I had a good talk with Rebecca but I realised how self involved I am and how much caring Rebecca is compared to me. I should stop being concerned of the things around me and open my eyes to problems my friends may be having and I would do that. Come to think of it, Sowwie Rebecca for making you angry yesterday afternoon. I knew, you were angry and upset I didn't know why now that I do, I am very sowwie. (T^T). Seems like I can't do anything right. I am useless at everything and I wonder with my abilities, personalities and characteristics what would I even be good at. I feel like I can't do anything right nor can I figure out anything. I not smart in anything I do whether it is educational or in my social life. I'm just no good.(>~<). Maybe I am thinking to much again and putting myself down or maybe it is cause of the depressing weather either way. I need to cheer up and think positive and care about my friends more which is the most important thing I NEED to DO.

I am going to stop being self involved. ^~^
Bye-bees.

2nd Last Day of School, Term 2

Finally the term is about to end as well as a break from my maths tuition however I still have one more lesson today. Today was an alright day, having it lows and highs like every other normal school day. Throughout the day, I have been feeling a overwhelmed happiness and not sure for what reason however the minute I got my Extension maths result back my mood immediately dropped. I knew I wasn't going to get the marked that I have hoped for but I didn't want this thought to have been true.

On the other hand I had a great afternoon spent with Ling. I walked with Rebecca, M.V, E.W and Y.L towards the train station. As I was walking down the stairs towards the platform, I noticed someone in a blue jacket which I immediately recognised as Ling. E.W and Ling meet for the first time in a while and had a very short conversation, in fact I don't think E.W really wanted to talk to him. In an case, we traveled to our destination together, except M.V, E.W and Rebecca both fond a three seater while Ling and I remain standing close to the exit. We parted with E.W in the train as the four of us jumped off the train and later Ling and I parted with Rebecca and M.V in front of the station gates. We spent the rest of the afternoon together, eating yogurt talking and having lots of fun (>v<). Unfortunately, every happy moment has to come to an end as the time drew near for my friends to arrive for tutoring while Ling has to rush back home therefore parting at the station gates as I caught up with my friends.

It felt like such a long tutoring lesson and I also started to notice there is this random year 10 or 9 guy seems to glance at me quite a few times during the lesson. Maybe it is me thinking to much but every time I look to take a break from the maths work I usually look at my surrounding. This is when I noticed the guy to be gaining a peek and when he noticed that I can see him looking, he immediately turns back to his work as if wasn't doing anything. Kind of distracting and worrying for me but oh well, he can look all he like I am not interested and he is just to young for my liking.

Anyway, after tutoring I met up with Rebecca how had decided to stay behind to go to her tutor place to study. Rebecca and M.V was meant to meet up with V.N today but from what I heard from Rebecca she wasn't able to make it as there was an emergency which I hope everything is ok. Rebecca walked A.Z and I to the bus stop as we were engaged in a lovely conversation. Once again I parted with Rebecca as A.Z and I caught our bus home and along the way I found out that I am able to use internet on my phone which I never knew how to access. I am so happy I can use internet outside of the house however, I think I would be on the safe side and not use it that much as I might go over my plan and definitely do not want to do that.

Oh well, I another day has passed and I am still my happy and positive self except that maths test that threw me off course but anyway. Off I go to enjoy my remaining hours left before sleep for some enjoyable drama watching.
Bye-bees.

I Finally Got It~~~

I wanted to post this up yesterday however cause I have been concentrating on my english notes for the exam I had today which I failed at, I think (=.=).

Anyway, yesterday my friend, M.V. wasn't feeling well and very depressed which I started to pick up during the day as she wasn't acting like her usually self. M.V decided to buy a Pokemon doll to cheer her up therefore came with me on to the train towards my stop as there is a Morning Glory store that was within the vicinity. When we enter we found the dolls where placed on a shelf at the corner of store near the window, we immediately head straight for it. I wasn't planning to by anything only to accompany my friend as she choose one of her dolls she wanted to buy however, M.V pointed out.
"Hey, look there is a Snorlax Doll." This immediately caught my attention.
" What! OMG~ Give me." I stare at it and smile considering if I should buy it this time or not. I was very hesitant as I wanted to save money this week for future events however this doll as made me want to use the money I originally planned to save. My finally decision was to get this doll cause I REALLY, REALLY wanted it so much. Regret not saving but so glad I brought it. M.V brought a legend Pokemon which the name is not coming to me just yet. After buying the dolls, we returned to the bus stop not before we brought a little snack along the way.

Anyway, the my main point is. I GOT IT~~~
SO Happy. End of my my afternoon as the rest of it was quite boring as I study most of the time with a few times I started to procrastinate which is beside the point. (Actually don't know my point here just too happy). Moving on. . . ^.^
Bye-bees

D.H 16th Birthday Party~~~

The long anticipated day has arrived, the day that D.H has been planning for quite some time. Today D.H had organised a Birthday Party at Darling Harbour on a Boat and all our expenses are paid by her (^.^). I was so excited to attend this night event and gather with all our friends to wish her a ' Happy 16th Birthday'

I had a long busy day which included some shopping with my mum for something I need for that night before meeting up with Rebecca later that same day to buy D.H's Birthday present. Around 10:40 my mum and I started shopping at Westfield looking for some shoes to wear to D.H party as well as skin coloured stockings. We shopped for 2 hours and 20 mins before I meet up with Rebecca at the bank where she withdraw some money. When she arrived we gave each other a big long hug as I haven't seen her in 2 days, which I know is only 2 days but still it is good to see her. We started off buying something to drink as Rebecca was a little hungry but didn't want to eat since she wants to eat a lot at D.H's party. Anyway after purchasing Easy-way, the two of us left for David Jones in search of the present I found D.H last time we talked to a shop assistant but recommended us to wait for a more specialised person in cosmetic products who was currently busy with another customer. Rebecca and I decided to come back later, so we left to the pet shop and engaged ourselves with the cute puppies and kittens. There was one puppy reminded me of when Lady was younger and the first time I saw her cute eyes (one blue and one brown)

Back on Topic. . .

After spending almost half an hour at the pet store, we moved to the next shop which sold DVD's, Albums and so forth which I had decided to mention my idea that I wanted to complete late this year. I was quite tired of the standing and walking I had done that day especially in the high boot heels I was wearing at the time therefore we decided to rest on the bench outside before returning to David Jones. We had to wait a little longer for the specialised shop assistant as she was busy with another customer again but once we she free she explained to us about the product we wished to buy and offered some things that came along with the gift. After getting the gift, we need to organise something things like the receipt and prices which we needed to remove and as well as how much we each needed to pay since we didn't take to much notice before only give the needed amount in. To pay back the extra amount I paid, Rebecca brought a Chicken skewer and used the change to pay me back. As Rebecca ate, I realised I need to go Woolworths to buy some clips which we also found a straightener which I wanted but didn't have enough money to buy. Rebecca later brought it for, which I was happy abou but feel bad and promise to pay her back however Rebecca refused to let me pay her back saying it is to repay me for getting the dollar (which Ling contributed most of it). But I will pay her back, Understand Rebecca I WILL. Mwahahahahhahaha~~~

Anyway, that was about it with the shopping and it was about time I got home to prepare for D.H's party. When I got home I tested out the straightener and applied makeup however it didn't look like I made much of difference of straightening my hair and applying make-up because no one noticed it. However, I gained a few compliments from my dress which I was pleased at and one which included Ling as I had showed him once I got home from the party. 

Back on Topic. . .

Once I am ready to leave for D.H's house, my mum sent me which during the trip there she was stressing that she is going to be late since she didn't exactly remember where she was meant to go but she has some idea. Anyway I was late to D.H's house by 5 mins but I ended up staying in her house waiting for her mum to come home with her two cousins for around about another 5 mins. From there we left for Star city where D.H's parents parked their car which later we made our way to the restaurant and wanted for the others to arrive. D.H had trouble with her high heels when traveling from Star City to the restaurant but we still made it there before the time we where meant to. Everybody took so long to get there except M.V who was there earlier than D.H and I. Rebecca came soon after followed by Y.L, S.Z, C.G, K.N, I.Y and Y.W. After a few more mins V.N arrived which followed by us seating around the table waiting for one last person, A.S to arrive which she took a couple more mins. Before the food came out Rebecca and I decided to do a toast for D.H. I tripped slightly as I stood up to say my toast which lead to my friends joking that I am drunk which was obviously not the case it was just the boat being unstable (:P). Most of the food that came up was seafood beginning with the Salads which were quite delicious though I didn't actually taste the one with prawn only the one with Lamb 

Salad with Prawn

Salad with Lamb

A.S was a vegetarian therefore was unable to eat the salads that contained meat and we had to order a special meal just for her which was a yummy looking pasta.

Vegetarian Pasta

After the salads, have been consumed there next big plate of food arrived at different times but exactly the same as it was placed from one end of the table to the next. 

Seafood Plater 

All the food there was delicious and I became very full after the meal as well as being very satisfied. (^.^) After the meal we began wonder, out of our seat taking photos and enjoy each others company. During that time we wondered into the bathroom a few times which twice I tripped as I went throught the door because of how there was a stump that was in the way (T^T). When the cakes came out (I said cakes because C.G  everyone burst into the 'Happy Birthday' song which someone in the middle of it messed it up. I was quite fall when eating the cake but I managed to finish my piece. The time began to pass as we took even more photos and talked about anything that seemed to come up. C.G offered to send me home which I decided to take up the offer and accept the ride home which we were the first two people to leave the party. Overall the party was a delightful just like how this D.H is to be with. I Loved every moment of today and enjoyed myself very much though it was a little dizzying being on that slightly swaying boat.

Thank you D.H for the fantastic party. Hope you like the present Rebecca and I brought. Enjoy you 16th Birthday and HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~~

Bye-bees

Truth or just Thinking Too Much

You know when your bored, your mind starts to wonder about anything and everything? Well, I am feeling that way and when my mind starts wondering it would also lead me to thinking to much and worrying over nothing which comes to think of it mean I am always bored because I always worry. Interesting didn't notice this before. Anyway, so I have been really bored late especially since my internet is starting slow down and everything I am trying to watch to distracted myself is loading SO slowly that it is irritating.

I was just thinking though how much I missed being with my friends at this moment even though I am seeing them tomorrow which I would blog about when I get home tomorrow night. It would be a very interesting night. I starting to miss everything that I use to spend my days with like all the good drama watching talking to my friends and also talking to Ling. But today, no one seems to want to talk or they are just busy and I dont want to disturb them. I'm just a little depressed which happens when I think to much and I don't want to bother anyone else because it isn't a big deal as well as just making other people worry which seems like what I am doing now. Haha. . . but I am just trying to past sometime as I wait for the videos to load and need to express some of my depression because you know "If you keep things in you will get internal injury" this chinese phrase I translated which I don't know if I translate it correctly but anyway. Nothing really to say I guess just that I am Missing everyone and everything that would usually make me happy and thinking about them doesn't seem to work all i want to do is. . . I dont even know. What can I do to cheer up that won't bother friends and keep me from thinking to much?

Oh reminds me I found out one thing that really annoys me and it is a bad quality of mine. I would change and come to think of it, I am finding more and more bad qualities that I have physically and mentally. Starting to realised that I am not as good as I thought I am and that even though I try not to be this someone I hate, I end still like that. I don't want to gossip or tell things I am not meant to. I don't want to be a pushover which I can be at times. I don't want to be slow. I dont want to be an open book. I don't want to be someone that is not trustworthy which I think many people thinks that. Maybe I am over thinking but somethings are true and I know it even though some people tell me that I am not. I just think so and I hate it. Geez I am putting myself down which isn't what I am meant to be doing. I am meant to be happy and positive but now it is so hard to do. Sigh. Never mind. I guess I go back trying to distract myself before I think about more bad qualities or just me thinking too much
Bye-bees

P.S This post was meant to be posted yesterday but something happened with it when I was trying to publish it.

Memories~

Missing Something? Oh right, the other half. (Ling has that).
Missing You 

Monthly on this date, I would try to update something sweet and meaningful for my special someone. Reason because 2 months ago was the day everything change as a new beginning opened up to us.
The poem underneath is a combination of a limerick and a normal poem for Ling that special someone.

My Shooting Star.

The night before, I wished upon a shooting star
As we spent the following day, I felt so far
We walked through the park and pass a bar (really just a cafe)
that day you confessed
and my wish fulfilled
My heart is content as I have found my shining star

Never really smile until that day
The sun never shined across the sky
I was lost until you help find my way
You changed my world so I can fly.

You are my only wish.

Love You, Ling.

Bye-bees

Meetings~

Today was a great day, I have return to my normal self again the only downer was that I forgot my own wallet this morning meaning I have no money to buy lunch. I wanted to borrow some money for D.H but like me has forgotten her wallet as well I later asked to borrow Yuki for some money but I never end up buying anything. So throughout the school hours, I had only half a mandarin E.W gave me, a tea egg from D.H very delicious and some milk & cookies chocolate. (T^T) Oh well. . . Other than that I have been feeling quite happy as I did get some food after school.
Back to my main point. . .

Today I caught the train with C.G who I haven't caught the train in a while, C.T and her friend, K.P. I was talking to them when I felt someone tap me on the shoulder and say "hey", I was shocked as I turned around to see who it was.  I gain a quick glanced, I noticed that it was one of Ling's friends and I replied him with a "hello" but as I turned around my friends stared at me and I bashfully asked why they were staring at me like they were. They didn't really give me a proper answer but did ask if he was the guy, they meet with Ling last time. I was surprised to see him on the same train as I was because I don't think he usually catches the same train as me and I have also noticed that I think he cut his hair short than the last time I remember. Anyway that was about it with meeting Ling's friend.

C.T and I jumped off at our train stop as we had planned to go to Bread-top for some food which Christine had shouted for me which I was very happy since I was starving. C.T's little sister, C.t left school early that day as she had some stomach pains in the morning. Anyway I was were about to catch the bus back to our homes I noticed that the my guy (B.G) who talks to me was catching the same bus with someone from his school and use to attend my primary school. I knew that he was going to talk to me later but I was fine with that I guess. The bus was quite full of people but C.T and I managed to find a seat which happened that B.G today decided to seat opposite of us. The bus ride back, I had enjoyed a lovely conversation with my friends but occasionally I would look around the bus and at times I noticed that B.G was staring at me which kind of creeped me out and reminding of the pervert guy last thursday. Anyway, after a few minutes after B.G and I had got off the bus he began talking to me and asked me about if I play sport and other school related topics came up until we reached my house and he continued on to his house.

It was interesting day for me and I am back to normal. Happy and Positive
Bye-bees

Athletics Carnival

Waking up this morning, it was similar to how I felt the night before because I couldn't feel anything. No emotions, nothing made me feel happy but I wasn't in a very good mood again especially since I had a sleepless night. Last night when I was trying to sleep my heart felt heavy and I just felt restless all night. This morning I hoped to bring out a cheerful smile so I wouldn't have to worry my friends which worked but Y.L noticed that my eyes were slightly puffy which I became worried about. I mood lightened up as I meet my friends but not as much as I hoped but throughout the day I gradually felt happy with the good and the accompaniment of my friends. The teachers have instructed that if we were not going to participate in the carnival we must go and help out around in the field events which was exactly what my friends and I did. I was teamed up with D.H and S.Z as we set to help out at the triply jump and long jump area. We had to sweep the sand in place after people had jumped in it and measure the distance from where they are meant to start jumping to where they finally land. It was a busy day of helping and eating. The athletics carnival was not bad however it was very cold as we were standing in the cold winter breeze all day.

The day ended at 2:30 as we started to make our own way home. I walked with M.V to Olympic station when we noticed this fountains and a footpath underneath it. S.Z who was near us decided to run through it as we hoped not to get wait as the fountain will turn on and off causing who every under it at the right time to get wet which happened to be me once. But it was still fun walking under the fountain. When we finally go in the train, I sat next to D.H as we waited for the train to arrive at our destination. I didn't want to go home so early so M.V and I decided to go out and have so food before we catch the bus home. I had a great time with M.V and instantly lightened and highlighted my day however by the time we have to go home my mood would suddenly change. We caught the bus along with A.Z who I noticed catching the same bus as us.

Overall I had a great day. Hopefully by tomorrow, I will be Happy and Positive once again as long as nothing bad happens tonight.
Bye-bees

BLOWN UP~~~

As night came my mood has remained feeling damp but I just let it be and distracted myself. My mum and I ate dinner but my dad didn't want to eat for some unknown reason. As dinner had finished, I decided to go shower before jumping back onto my computer for some procrastination. I was not able to shower in peace as my parents start arguing again and I just couldn't take especially since I was already feeling so annoyed. I slowly began to break down but not completely, the finally straw that lead me to completely go mad was my dad dragging me out halfway through my shower (not literally) and making me go buy KFC with my mum. I start break down in the bathroom for a bit but I held myself together however after going out and coming back home my parents start yelling. I couldn't take it, I told them to stop yelling but there was no change. They wouldn't listen to me after I constantly ask them to stop yelling and just to stay away from each other. I screamed before my dad told me to stop being annoying, my mind just completely went blank and I told them that I am not the one being annoying it is them with their constant arguing. I can only take in so much. However no matter what I did, nothing seems to stop them. I left for my room, still hearing the arguments even though it is quieter. I was shaking so much. Crying non-stop. I had completely lost myself in tears of anger and pain. To add on to my misery I realised my stomach started to hurt which grew until I was rolling on the floor in pain. Though I was already sitting on the floor crying in the first place anyway. I finished my shower and came back to my computer in seek of comfort but really by then my shower washed off all the mess that was going through my head. I felt calmer and more peaceful however still depressed and a little emo. I ended up finding comfort from a dear friend of mine D.H even though I was happy it wasn't the comfort I hoped to find, I wanted it from someone I haven't spoken for over a day. It seems I won't be hearing from him in the time I need him the most I understand why but just a little. . . makes no difference I feel depressed in the first place and very emo.

I now understand why some people when they are angry would lose their apetite. I never knew how much anger and pain my family can bring until now. I never knew how hard I could cry that it would even bring pain to my stomach and for a moment to my heart. But the past is the past. I need to let go and I will hopefully return to normal but life looks so dull from here. I will brighten up for 2morrow. 

Bye-bees

Sunday Shopping

Today was the first sunday in a while that I was able to sleep until noon or at least close to noon. I was able to get 11 hours of sleep which is probably a bit to much for me but thats ok I am happy though not about the dream I had. You see, I had this dream about my parents wishing to split because of everything happening between them and mainly money problems. I would usually be happy about this but it reminded me of something I had heard about that day and I knew what the dream was telling me as new worry arises. Waking up today, I was feeling a little depressed and down-hearted unlike other times I knew why I was feeling this way and I know it is about the dream I had because I didn't remember it until later that day. However, I shall keep the reason to myself (sigh - o -). Anyway, my mum told me that we were going to go to my sister place and see her before going to lunch at a restaurant near her apartment. I was glad that I get to see my sister again and talk to her for the first time since the last time I talked to her where she wanted to go out with Ling and I.

As we traveled to her place, I returned to thinking about my worries and I have some many of them so it would take me forever to think about them all thoroughly (AHHH~~~ T^T). Meeting with my sister we treated each as normal and I was a little neglected as we walked to the restaurant like always. Reason why I listen to music because they don't really talk to me directly a lot of the times other then when my sister starts finding my mum annoying and talks to me which happened as we waited for our food to be prepared. My mum planned to go to to Westfield after lunch which I hoped my sister would come along as I need her expertise in skincare products. However, she wasn't bother going meaning I need to figure what products would be best suited for D.H's 16th Birthday present. I was glad to have seen my sister, talked to my sister cause I realised I really missed her but there was so much I wanted to talk to her about as she is more experienced in those areas but I don't know how or whether she would really understand me. My sister has a beautiful personality and I admired her a lot but I don't always get along with her and quite sure she doesn't understand me my points of views at times. I want to spend more time with her. I need to spend more time with her. JIE~~~ I Miss You.
Back on topic. . .

First thing my mum and I did went to when entering Westfield was going to woolworth and brought some necessities and food/drinks for me to bring to the athletics carnival. Placing all our shopping into the care we left to David Jones to view some skincare products for my friend and I asked a shop assistant for help as she gave me some good advice. However the products she had suggested was out of my affordable price ranging but I really wanted to give it to her because I believe she would be happy to get it. I decided that I would ask one of my friend if they want to share the cost and buy it as a combined gift later that day. My mum and I left the store, brought an Easy-way before we prepared to leave Westfield and drive further up to some other stores that we could buy some bread for my following day. I wanted to take a detour before going to the car towards the pet store and view the cute puppies and kittens. We had also passed a store with music albums, DVDs of movies, tv shows and many others. My mum was looking at the T.V that was viewing a cartoon show which had a cartoon dog and I was watching to until I something else that caught my attention. I found something that I think Ling might like which made me wonder what I would get for his Birthday even though I know it is months away. My mum and I also found a movie called "The Aristocats" which my mum remembers was one of my favourite childhood movies which I was so happy that she actually remembers considering she forgets things so easily. Love You Mummy~~~ (^.^). Anyway before we made it to our car, my mum bumped into her family friend who has a son doing HSC this year. The start chatting for a while before my mum finally decided to leave and during that conversation, I just entertained myself with music and the stores around me. After we brought some bread at 'Bread-Top', we left for home and along the way I start to worry again thinking about everything that worried me in the morning and new worries that begins to surface. These worries now are depressing me in a way but for sure will not but this aside and focus on a brighter and happier outlook on life. I say this but would it work. . .  probably not. Gosh. . . I need to cheer up, stop worrying and return to my normal self which comes but then disappears just as quickly.

Overall, spending the day with my sister and my mum made be very happy, I need something good in my day. . . or weekend though yesterday day of cartoon movie watching was quite a highlight (:P).
Enough of this now. Enjoy the rest of the weekend.
Bye-Bees

My Theory~

Last Thursday after I went off my social network site, Rebecca called me as she wanted me to have sweet dreams. You see, I had made a theory that who ever is the last person who calls me before I sleep is the person that would usually enter my dreams. That night I had a mixture of dreams that now I don't even remember some of them. However there was 1 I remember clearly and a few scenes from other dreams that I remember bits and pieces of.

The firs dream I remember clearly, included my sister, Ling, his mum (who I never met O.O?) and my parents. 

I had just came how with my mum after we went out shopping somewhere and my sister for some strange reason was living with us again. 

" There is a guy in you room called B.B (Rebecca's brothers name o.O). He says you have something he needs for his study" my sister informed me. I imagined that he was in my room with another guy playing on my computer however as I entered the room confused about to question the reason he is in my house and in my room, I realised it was not B.B. Surprisingly I found Ling sitting my my computer chair with his bag he normal carries for school. I kept pretending that it was B.B so my sister and parents don't become suspicious as I smiled happily greeting Ling. I don't understand though how Ling came into my room and how come my parents didn't seem to care or notice it. Anyway, I jumped scenes and instead of enjoying my time in my room with Ling, I was walking down the stairs as I saw my mum preparing to cook. My mum mentioned to me that I was not joining them for dinner which disappointed her. I stared at her confusingly until I realised that Ling was at the front door and my mind telling me that I have a dinner date with Ling today. Again I was surprised my mum didn't care that I was dating someone but anyway I enter my room and dressed for this special occasion though I spent a lot of time trying to change. Ling enter my wrong again just as I finished changing where there we heard our mum's talking in Shanghainese which seemed to worry us in our dream though not for long. We jumped scenes again and instead we were in a fancy restaurant getting a nice seat some where. I left Ling at the table as I went towards the toilet where I found Ling's mum on the phone (even though I don't know what she looked like it was emphasised in my dream) and she was talking about my family which she didn't seem to like very much. That was about the end of the dream. 

The other dreams always included Rebecca next to me and some other friends who I don't actually remember but there was one specific dream where Rebecca and I were at the gym area in school. There was a crowd of students and a few teachers read to say the prayer that Miss N was about to begin. The prayer consists of thanking teachers till the end and mention my full name (including my middle/chinese name) with a compliment after it. I was happy about the compliment which I don't remember but curious and shocked about why my name was said out and not just my first name but including my middle and last name no one calls my whole entire name out ever. I had some many crazy dreams were I teleport from one dream to another and dreams within dreams. 

However, my theory is correct because in every dream except the first dream with Ling had Rebecca in it. So if you like to be in my dreams please call before I sleep (:P) Jokes~ But it is interesting how the calls I get, effects my dreams. Oh well it was a good night. 

Bye-bees

 P.S I am not trying to call people bees. it just sounds cute to me saying 'bye-bees'

Don't make me choose~~~

Some people in life get ask from their parents whether they like their mum better or their dad. I hate when these situations comes up because how are you meant to choose and even if you can choose, you wouldn't want to say it to them because you know you will hurt one of their feelings. I have been but in that spotlight before but the worse one is not the fact they ask who you like better but ask you if you agree with them about how your other parent is a bad parent. I don't want to choose a side because this feud does not involve me it is between you two.

It is a tough position to be in one you need to decided between to people especially if you care about them a lot. I admit I will always be on my mum's side but I wouldn't say it to my dad even though how much he annoys me because I still care about his feelings even he doesn't care about mine. I don't want to be the same person he is because that is just making me a hypocrite like him, so no way am I growing up like him. My mum, to me is the best person in the world, no one in the world can ever be better than my mum's personality and anyone has her as a mother, sister, daughter, wife or even a friends would be grateful to have her (unlike my dad). I get all my best personalities from my mum. My mum is caring, loving, not easily angered and never puts herself first. I love my mum because really there is nothing bad about her, I can't find anything that makes her personality bad. . . well my mum is quiet loud when she is talking but doesn't degraded my mums enormous caring heart. My dad on the other hand is completely the opposite which I hope I would NEVER EVER BE LIKE HIM. My dad too me is the worst person on earth, yes I care about him only because he is my dad nothing else I can say. I know people think, he can't be that bad but you can't say that because you don't know him and I am sure you don't want to. Think about if I am saying this about my own biological dad which normal daughters usually we'll love and care about so much but I don't love him I just care about him cause I have to and I can't see people suffer no matter how much I really dislike her/him (Too nice or just a big weirdo).

Anyway, my main point is I don't want to be in the middle of their arguments and truth be told I will always be on my mum's side because for one I don't believe a word my dad says about her and second he is unreasonable and won't listen to anyone else reasoning. Sigh~~ I know it is wrong to dislike my dad this much but I can't help it. I really don't want anything to do with him but I know that he is my dad I can't change the fact that I would be the only one he can depend on when he is older.

Oh well. End of my ranting
Bye-bees~

My Afternoon~!~!~!

Another week has passed and finally my maths tutoring has arrived for this week. Nothing much to say about tutoring, just say old thing learning maths, being bored nothing interesting. However I had a great afternoon before tutoring start as I was accompanied with one of my best friend Rebecca while Ling was unable to join me again as he has an dentist appointment (>.<). Even though I miss seeing Ling, I ended up having a wonderful afternoon with Rebecca.

After getting out of the train station, we were indecisive about where we should go which we took several minutes before we landed infront of YogoBerry. We spent the entire afternoon we had together eating a mango yogurt with Oreos and mixture of popping balls and a lovely conversation. I had noticed from this afternoon, how close I have already gotten with Rebecca. I always knew that we were close and will be friends till the end of the Earth but she is more than just a friend. She is my sister (not literally), someone to me has become even close than my really sister. Not matter what I tried to hide from her, she seems to see right through me and I guess this is just an example of how close our friendship has become. 

In our conversation, Rebecca came straight out and asked me if I have been a little depressed this past week. I was little shocked and surprise at this question because for one I have been through a mixture of emotions this week and 'no, it is not that time of the month =.= ' I responded her as honestly as I can because I for one isn't sure what has been going through my mind these past few days. I would also admit across my long weekend, I have had some tough situations that I had to get pass for one my family, school and some social personal thoughts which are too personal to share with anyone (I do mean anyone. so if anyone I know read this then. Don't Ask!) Anyway (^.^), I was happy that Rebecca would noticed the difference in my tone of voice and glad that I was able to talk to her even though I have really got anything sorted out. For now, I need to work some things out with myself find the source of the worries that are occurring and gradually work my way to my normal cheerful mood. Soon I would returned to the person that I was before, the one that would but her best effort to make everyone else smile even if I might fail. So Don't Wowwie. I will be back. 

However, my day did not just end there after what seems to be hours of tutoring I left with AZ towards the bus after we brought a snack at a Korean shop next the the train station. We jumped on the bus and seated ourselves right at the back of the bus as every other thursday night. A random man was seating on the other side of the back seat and seated in a position where he is able to stare right at us and exactly what he did throughout the trip. Every single time, I looked behind me I would see him staring at us. Even when he was caught staring at us, he would continued and stare into my eyes as I glanced at him from time to time. I saw his big slightly red eyes that brings shivers down my back to just to recall back that memory. He was a big, scary, creepy man (>~<). When we were just about to jump off the bus, AZ and I both heard him mumble something, not sure if it was english or not, but from the tone it seem as if he was disappointed. I had a quick glance outside the bus to check if he was still watching us  however thankfully he had stopped but he had a slightly depressed and disappointed look on his face. 

AHH~~~ I think he was a pervert or something (>~<).  AZ and I began talking about the creepy guy as we walked home together as it brought chills down my spine though I have the feeling it might also be because the gentle winter's night breeze. But that is beside the point, the main point is why is that creepy man looking at us throughout the entire trip home. I am going to catch a different bus next time I see him again, I will NEVER catch the same bus as him. 

Thank you Rebecca for accompanying my today and noticing these little details. You are forever my Beautiful Rebecca Onee-san.

And everyone out there, Be careful. Watch out for any creepy looking man who constantly stares at you.
Bye-bees~

What Pains My Heart

How many people out there would treat an animal as equal as themselves? How many people out there would love and care for an injured animal as if it was a human being? I love ALL animals, there might be a few I may fear or dislike in some way but I would not wish for any harm to befall on them. To me animals should have equal rights as any other human beings. Learning from Biology that we have all evolve from amino acids made from gases that were present in prehistorical atmosphere. Then why are us humans treated differently to an animal especially when we all came from the same thing (not sure if that would be the right term to use). As Humans, yes we are my intelligent than an other animal but that does not make an animals any less valuable then we are. Some people in a way my just be animals at heart.

What hurts me and pains me too see is cruel to animals. I hate to see a animals suffer especially on the hands of a human been. Like I said we are the more intelligent species shouldn't we use our knowledge and learn to be civilised and treat animals properly. If we treat animals like nothing, then we are no better than an animals at there. Lions don't understand the pain they are inflecting on their prey, they are just hunting for their own survival. We know better and understand the pain that we are inflecting on other so we do people continue to treat animals so cruelly. I know saying this out of the blue may seem a bit off but you see I know someone who doesn't treat his pet the way it should and it kills me to just even see him doing it. I tell him off and argue against him but he doesn't listen he is to stubborn and self-centered that he doesn't even see the pain he is causing on this poor little animal. To me it is like a venomous snake that injects venom into their victims watching as their prey gradually suffer until death finally comes knocking. 

This issue might not be as important to you as it is to me or not as important enough and that their are more important issues out their that needs our attention. But this is an reoccurring issue, some place don't have rules set against animal cruelty or some places theirs is not enough actions to stop this cruelty. I want to live in a world where animals can live with humans in harmony and peace. I want to live in our world wear animals won't have to suffer from humans cruelty. Not only do I want to see animals free from human cruelty but also pain the humans will inflect on each other. We are a civilised people and we should understand the meaning of living in a our modern society where we all aim for peace. We are all equal no matter what racist, gender, culture, religion and/or species. Every living thing on Earth are equal.

So please treat your pets with kindness and love. Not only you pets but other animals too. 

Bye-bees

Outing with My Mum

Since last sunday I was unsuccessful to go out and shop with my mum, we had planned to go out to the city today. My mum needed to do something in the city however she had forgotten the key thing for her to actually complete the process therefore we just spent all day shopping it was lots of fun.

The day began in the early morning or at least early enough for me when I was woken up by some noises from the other room. At first the noises were quite quiet and I knew that it was my mum watching something on her phone in bed. The noise gradually grew louder to the point I wasn't able to return back to my peaceful sleep and I wanted to knock on the wall indicating to her that the noises is to loud. However I decided not to and somehow the noises gradually decreased without my warning which allowed me to continue sleeping until the home phone rang and woke me up again (=.=). This time it was my sister calling my mum to ask if she wanted to go to her house and eat the local shops near her place. My mum agreed and asked me if I wanted to go over to my sisters place but she forgot that we had planned to go to the city today and shop. Once I reminded my mum she had to declined my sister however invited to her to join us which my sister refused and she is sick of the city as she works there 5 days a week. So as planned we left to go to the train station to get to the city at 10:30 and the whole way through I wanted to tell my mum the truth of my first relationship. But after interrogating my mum I realised it was not a good idea to mention it to her because she will definitely tell my dad who is the one person I do not want to know until after high school. Though on the other and I had found out from my mum that my dad is quite good judging over men which makes me curious about who he would judge Ling. We dropped the topic about boys and talked about other things and it has been a long time since I talk to my mum like that of course at times she side tracks to my studies which annoy me a little but thats ok.

After we arrived at the city we decided to shop around market city especially now that every shop there is a clearance sale on. We ended up being two clothes in Supre and my mum brought two shirts alicioust Dotti while I found a very pretty black jacket and it was 30% off. After shopping around, we decided it was time for lunch and went up to the food courts, buying food from the shop ' Top Choice'. It was delicious yet so filling that I wasn't able to finish it even with some of my mums help but we only wasted a little bit. . . I know it still isn't good (T^T). Anyway after lunch, I took my mum and wondered around Galaxy world for a bit and told her what games there where and what games are quite fun, but it was obviously not interesting for her. We left market place and decided to wonder around the street outside there were nothing very interesting until I saw Morning Glory which my mum at first refused to enter but with some nudge by me she entered (^.^). Wondering inside the shop, I noticed the wall that held all the pokemon dolls again and this time I found a snorlax which remind me of happy memories. I asked my mum if I could buy the doll but my mum refused to let my buy it as she was given the reason that I have to many already but this one wasn't different and no matter what I said I couldn't convince her. She told that if I wanted the doll I should come back next time with my friends and get it but I am afraid that the next time I go there would be no more (T^T).  I really wanted the snorlax and it looked so cute which I know regret not taking a photo of it before I left (=.=).  Nothing I could do now. . . depressed me.

Anyway we decided it was time to go home so my mum left for a shop called 'Emperor Garden. . .' (all I can remember from that shop), it selled the asian porks, ducks and many other delicious food.
My mum brought home a container of crispy pork skin which taste fantastic though it has quite a bit of fat which I dislike about. After getting the pork we left for the train station though through I different route from where we can which brought me back to memories of the last time I was there which happened to be last friday (hehe :P). It was a very tiring day and during the train ride back I lied on my mum's shoulders which gave me a peace of mind as rested my eyes until we arrive at our destination. Truth be told, I rather lying on someone else shoulder because it not only gave me a peace of mind but I feel and overwhelming happiness and safety which I really miss even though it has only been 2 days (>v<).

Oh well, I had a great day with my mum and hope we can do it again some day as well as hoping one day I am able to reveal the truth to my mum. Mum don't get angry about it or lecture me because I am Happy. Love You Mummy~~~
Don't forget to spend time with your own mum because she is the only one u would ever have. Cherish your moments with her.
Bye-Bees ^.^

Fun~ Fun~ Fun~

Staff Development Day Today meaning NO SCHOOL FOR STUDENTS~~~ YAY and Ling & I decided to go out as well (^.^).

Waking up around 8:00 in the morning, I asked my mum to send me to the station where I would be meeting Ling at our usually spot. Happily meeting Ling and travelled towards Broadway mall, buying some chicken from Oporto along the way. As we waited for the cinema to open, we sat in the food court and took in the delicious food. Even after finishing our the food we still had to wait a couple of more minutes before the cinema's open which we spent seating/standing somewhere. We had decided to watch 'Fast and Furious 6' which we missed like half the movie for some specific reasons that shall not be revealed (don't think to much or be curious hehe :P). Anyway the parts I did see was great as it has great stunts, fights, muscly men (2 of them are two bulky for my liking =.=) and lots hot girls which are in all fast and furious movies (I think, I have only seen a few:P).

After the movies it was time for lunch which we enter the restaurant we did on our first date, this time Ling order Spaghetti Bolognese while I order grilled chicken breast. It was delicious~~~ (^.^) not as nice as. . . but satisfied my stomach at least and quite filling. After the delightful meal we travelled back to Chinatown as we made our way to Galaxy world which didn't have time to go last time. However before we enter Galaxy world, Ling wanted to find a EB Games store which we were unsuccessful in finding which later I remember that I saw one in Broadway (at least I think I did).

In Galaxy world, we wanted to started off with the air hockey game however there were people already on it so we instead changed to a 2 player shooting game. I got the hang of it after losing 2 lives but I ended up losing all my remain lives not very long after, Ling as always stay in the game longer then I did. Once we finished the game we noticed that the air hockey table was free therefore taking the chance we started to verse each other which I never win against him (TT^TT). Losing the air hockey game we pasted a pinball machine which I love playing and not bad at except I wasn't very proud of how I went I know I could have done better. Next game was the Punching ag Strength Testing Game which I got the highest score for the first time the second time we tried (using a cheating method) Ling had got the highest score. We both play the basketball game followed by the Hammer Strength Testing Game which I couldn't beat Ling's score but I did beat my own on my second turn. We wonder around a bit to figure out what we should try out next, when we spotted these motorcycle which looked interesting to play therefore we decided to try it out. I got the hang off the game after several seconds into the game and came fourth in the end while Ling came sixth (meaning I beat him and I rarely beat him in something. YAY ^v^).  We moved on until we got to the Techno game which is one of my favourite games in Galaxy world and therefore play on the machine three times the third game, Ling tried a hard level by himself. Next to the Techno game there were a few fighting games which I thought would be fun to try out and it was very quite entertaining. We played a tag battle where we had to choose to characters I choose my first one but I didn't have time for my second one which choose the last one character I was looking at. Ling said that he wasn't even able to choose his characters yet and the machine choose for him. As I was versing Ling, I realised that the girl character I choose was not very good at fighting at all and the method of button bashing wasn't really working therefore I switch to the accidental character which had a leopard head. The Leopard head was a great character and by using him and a few efforts of the girl character I was able to defeat Ling (^v^ found another game I could beat him in.) After defeating Ling, I continued to play against other characters first was a panda and just by using the Leopard head I was able to defeat him 3 times in a row, So proud of that. Next was the random vampire looking guy which took some effort with both of my characters but I ended up defeating him. Unfortunately, the next character was very difficult to beat and I was only able to defeat it once but it I ended up losing (TT^TT). That's ok~~~ I loved the game and so proud of the fact I was able to defeat two other characters and Ling (^.^).  After the enjoyable fighting game we walked through Galaxy world to this Rolling Ball Machine which we cheated in (Hehe ^.^). Bumper cars was next game we played and we played it twice before moving on to a different game. My driving in bumper cars have gotten better as I am able to dodge some cars quite easily however not all (>v<). We later got tokens in galaxy world and placed it into a machine in hope of gaining more tokens which work once but failed the remaining times. The last game of the day we decided to try the Punching Bag Strength Testing Game which I didn't do as well as I have hoped and Ling got caught using a cheating way.

After Galaxy world, we went searching for EB Games again which still was unsuccessful later giving up and left for Capital Square. We Spent half the time aiming to get a cat or seal toy from the crane machine for Rebecca since we failed last time at. After many failed attempts we finally grabbed one for her . (The cat looks like it is blushing ^.^ it isn't like that in actual fact)

The over half the time we went to take pictures which Ling refused at first but it is something I love to do everything I go out with my friends or with Ling. It allows me to keep it as memories and let me reminisce about the good times that had happened.

That was about the end our wonderful day, unfortunately.
Thank You For This Fantastic Day.
Love You, Ling.
Miss You, Ling.
Bye-Bees, readers.

Another Thursday Afternoon

Another Thursday has arrived, meaning I would be meeting Ling again (^.^). Throughout the whole day I was waiting for the afternoon to come yet I feared it as well not because of meeting Ling though. MV and I need to present our ancient assessment which I was so worried about presenting because I don't know if our assessment is good enough or what other people would think. I am that kind of person worrying about every little detail which I think annoys a few of people but I am just being cautious. . . Ok maybe a little over cautious but still. . . (>~<) Anyway entering our ancient class which was in period 5, our second last period of the day, our teacher discussed with us whether we wanted to present today or when term 3 starts since he is going on leave till the end of term. Everyone immediately agreed to present after the holidays which gave me a big sigh of relief.

MV waited for me to finish my last period before walking with me to the station as she wanted to catch the train and bus home that day. I found Ling sitting on one of the benches on the platform of the station and walked towards him my friends, MV, SZ & YL stayed behind for a several seconds before coming up to us. Ling greeted my friends as waited for the train to arrive and on the train I was surprised to find my family friend, Jason on it. I was more surprised that he would actually wave at me since he has the last 2 times we bumped into each other and the only other time he waved at me was around 2 years ago when I was with Denise.

Going Back on Topic~

MV, Ling and I left the train station and left towards Easy-way before MV parted with us (after buying a drink), leaving Ling and I some alone time. Walking through the plaza, we meet this guy that goes to my tutoring who also knows Ling while I also have a noticed that another family friend, Victor, was sitting next to him but doesn't seem to recognise me. We had walked past them twice that day anyway after waiting 11 mins to charge my phone, we left to buy some food at this korean corner shop. We spent the last remain minutes sitting near the train station eating, talking and some other things before he left and I continued to wait for my friends. Once they arrived, we left for maths tutoring and like last time my friend called me ' Ling's wife' but this time I didn't want to answer to it. I just wanted concentrate on my work so I can catch up with one of the guys in the class he is ahead which makes sense since he started it earlier. My friend then called my name and asked for my liquid paper which I passed to her after knowing the reason she called for me in the first place.

That was about as interesting as my Thursday could get but even so I enjoyed everything other than having to go to maths tutoring especially since my tutor was asking me if I was doing 4 unit maths. The other 2 guys want to and I don't want to be the only one not doing it but I don't want to do it which my mum agrees with from her understanding of the stress my sister had. However my tutors believer that I have the capability to do 4 unit as well as the fact that it would help improve my ATAR in year 12. *sigh* Oh Well. . . I have made my choice, I just need to tell them now.

Thank you for a lovely afternoon, Ling. Love you
Bye for now.

Relief and Motivation!

Our timetable cycle goes through a 2 week period and since every fortnight we have either a pastrol care or assemble. Today was one of our fortnightly pastrol care lessons where our teacher showed a motivation presentation. I knew she disliked teaching our year during pastrol care as most of our year are rude, loud and not the best students of the school. Of course not everyone in our year is like that like my friends, a few other girls and me (^.^) but overall our year is. . . well quite immature and separated as a group. 

Back on topic (:P)

During this pastrol care lesson, I watched 3 videos talking about motivations and steps to take to be successful. It really gave me a deep insight about what I need to do to achieve my own academic and personal goals. Just by spending that lesson watching and learning about motivations I realised how much I need to improve my study skills and learning methods to reach where I want to go. However I feel like I am lost in a way cause now I completely have no idea what career I want to head into anymore. Even though I dislike my dad for not believing in me and everything else he has done to my family but even so he has pretty decent to me, so I don't exactly want to disappoint him nor give up more own goals. However putting that aside, I am starting to have second thoughts about primary school teaching. I mean I still want to be a primary school teacher it is just that I learn that it is hard finding a job after university which is a big concern for me. I don't have the confidence in being a high school maths teacher as I don't believe have the control over student in there teens of course if I followed those steps to success I might be able. Anyway If I become a nurse as my dad is pushing me towards which I know I cant do as I fear watching people's pain or other peoples depression. Since I was young when I seen someone cry I would be able to feel tears swelling up in my eyes and it is something quite hard for me to control. It kind of sounds like I am a empath which sounds like a perfect person for a social worker and I consider that before but I don't know about the pay rates or if it is a good job for me to even enter. 

Keep going off the topic I want to talk about (=.=)

Anyway, If I decided to be a nurse I rather enter the career of a midwifery or the ones that in the therapy centers helping people to learn how to walk again which sounds quite interesting to me. Hopefully none of these would include anything with needles but I think it does (>~<). I am completely lost for my future career, but there are people that are equally lost I guess it is a tough time. 

Other than feeling motivated and lost at the same time I was be able to breathe a big sigh of relief after finishing and handing in my assessment Vv and I completed. There was a few stressful moment when we forgot a component in our assessment and rushed to complete it during the class before handing it in to the teacher. *phew* lucky for us which I hope we get a decent mark for it. Well that was basically my day feeling a mix of Confusing, Relief, Motivation and a little Stress. Such a messed up day oh well 

Hope everyone else out there had a great day including my lovely friends and Ling, my honey. >v<

Cut my hair~~~

Today, is a day where I have nothing on a day for me to rest though I still have homework I need to complete and not to mention the ancient assessment due on Wednesday (=.= doomed). Anyway, I wanted to get my hair trimmed and cut a side fringe like I used to which my mum agreed to take me. So in the early morning I woke, followed the morning procedure before my mum and I prepared to leave the house. My mum had wondered around for awhile before finding a parking spot taking as a while to get the hair salon. However, we had to wait another hour or so before I could get a hair cut therefore my mum and I decided to go and have lunch before returning back to the hair salon. As I have mentioned before I am very indecisive so I let my mum choose the restaurant that we shall dine in which she choose a chinese hand-made noodle place. The food there was not bad quite tasty but we were unable to finish it therefore we took take away.

We still had time to spare after lunch which my mum spent buying some groceries for tonight dinner while I spent my time texting Ling as I got weary of waiting for my mum. When we finally returned back to the salon, the hair dress still wasn't ready just yet so we had to wait a while longer. I easily became distracted by a magazine I found on the shelf infront of me and time passed quickly as I flipped through the pages. My hair now is relatively short than before by a couple of inches which I really like especially now that they have temporarily straighten it for me. After my haircut, my mum and I had planned to shop around for clothes or something but an unfortunate incident occur on my mum's chinese social network site.

Apparently, someone has hacked into my mum's account and went around asking everyone if they can borrow $50 000. One of my mum's contacts found it strange and contacted my aunty's sister who later passed the information to my aunt. My aunt knew that my mum wouldn't be asking for money therefore called my mum to confirm about the money borrowing information. My mum reassured them that she didn't not ask to borrow such large sum on money which meant that now she had to return home and fix the hacking problem in case someone on her contact list gets tricked into giving $50 000 to this random stranger.

I love my new haircut and I am sadden by the fact that I can't spend some quality time with my mum however the hacking business has been sorted and fortunate for us no one has fallen for the stranger plan which is unfortunate for him (hehe :P). SO HAPPY~~~

MV's House~~~

Today, MV and I decided to meet up at her house to complete our ancient assessment task but that has to wait as I have english tutor around noon. In the morning I woke up with a extremely sore left arm which I believe was the constant lifting of the heavy school bag I had the following day. My mum had to leave early for a resuscitation day for her work therefore leaving me at home cook for myself which was fine because I get to cook my own failed omelet which my mum hates me making. I know a failed omelet doesn't sound very nice, I only call it a failed omelet because I can't wrapped the egg around the filling and I end up making it scrambled eggs along with the fillings.
Anyway going back on topic. . .
After my morning routine and the making and finishing off my breakfast, my tutor arrived for my weekly english tuition which seemed to take to long as I was impatient to meet my friends. I received news from them a few minutes before my tutoring finished about joining them for lunch before going to MV's house. I forgot to mention before but Rebecca and MV needed go to the art galley for their art assessment therefore they meet up in the morning before meeting me in the afternoon.

So after my tutor left, I agree to join them which it took me awhile to get to them and I could tell they were getting a little impatient since the constantly called me and texted me to ask where I was. Once I arrived, Maria wanted to eat sushi therefore we entered a sushi restaurant and enjoy a delicious meal there.

At the end of our meal, when we were paying for the delicious meal, my phone started vibrating and I noticed that it was Ling calling me. There were I few interruptions during my call with Ling such as one of the waiters said "Xie xie," It shocked me because I didn't expect him to say it to me another interruptions was from Rebecca who insisted on talking to Ling just to tell him "Congratulations, You are free." Anyway, the call didn't last very long but I was happy to hear from him. After getting Easy-way, we travelled by bus towards MV's house before walking down the street and arriving at her house. I spent the first few minutes touring her house however we where not able to go upstairs nor were we able to see her garden and her dog. The next 2 hours or so we began filming a "draw my life" for our ancient topic, Nature of Heros. Filming this took so long and we were only able to finish to heros which I must thank Rebecca for the hard work of holding the camera and sorry for making you stand there for so long. I was planning to catch a bus home around about 5:00 however MV's mum insisted to drive Rebecca and me home which I would like to thank her very very much. Today Has been a great day enjoyed every minute of it.

Thank you for a great day MV and Rebecca. @^.^@

Don't make decision for me!~!~!~

We all have pressure from our parents on what we want to do or be when we grow up but does everyone have a parent that is so stubborn and wouldn't listen to anything you say. We should be able to live our own lives and make our own choices while making a few mistakes along the way but that is how we will learn and grow. I understand when they say I am trying to help or pushing you on the right path well to me not everything they say is the right path. BUT I WANT TO MAKE MISTAKES, I WANT MY OWN LIFE THAT I MAKE MYSELF.

It all started the minute I walked in the front door, I was tired and quite please with the day I have had so far. 

" Your dad and I are arguing. . ." The minute I hear this, I was thinking 'not again, I don't want to get involved in this' but hearing she tell me about what I wanted to do in my future I knew that I had to get involved. I told my mum I don't want to get involved and I am just to tired to care right now but once I got up I immediately start arguing with my dad about how much I want to become a primary school teacher or high school teacher would be fine to. My dad wouldn't listen me though no matter what I said and insisted on pushing me towards studying nursing. As the arguments continued a felt tears beginning to well up in my eyes but I refuse to let it out and suck it up and let it be. My mum called me down to eat some wontons and the minute, I start the same topic with my mum tears just came streaming down and I had no control over it. My dad joined us downstairs and continued to give reasons why I should be a nurse but to me all does reason is just his way of telling me that I have no ability to achieve my own goals and that he doesn't believe in my own choices. The more he went on the more tears that would drop down as I come to realised how stubborn my father is (which I am in a way). I decided that I couldn't stay in that kind of environment any longer therefore left over 2 wontons which I refused to eat and passed to my mum and back to my own room. 

As always, I would jump on my laptop and log on to my social network site where I noticed Ling online. Knowing that talking to him will make me feel calmer and happier therefore starting a conversation with him which led into a call. At first I was sure if I should mention the fact that I was crying to him be he had noticed a change in my voice and the constant sniffing which at first he thought I was sick. I honestly told him about what has happened and my situation as always he stay there comforting me and cheering me up. My dad decided also take up some of my time giving me a sort of lecture of why I should be a nurse which never went in my head cause I don't care about what he says anymore. I am going to make my own life choices and there is nothing he can do to stop me, I think. . .

Listen follow your dreams. Don't let your parents make decisions for you. Make your own decisions. Make your own mistakes. Live your own life because that is the only way we should live.  

Must Remain HAPPY & POSITIVE @^v^@

Thank You, Ling. You have cheered me up a lot. Mwah~~~ Love You.