I never thought I would think of someone so much that he would always be constantly in my head. Even when I am doing something I think of him. I feel my feelings for him grow and our relationship has truly improved a lot more over the last year. How long will this last? How long could this feeling last? I honestly hope it would last forever but then I doubt myself.
I doubt myself having the capabilities to hold on to him and over the 6 days we have been together, it made me feel less capable. I know there are things I need to improve on and hopefully would do that.
I really love him and I can't help thinking about him. I have now gotten the habit that I sleep much faster and easier with him either near me or when I can hear his voice in the background. I fear that one day if this all ends how devastated and depressed I will be. It would be my first heartbreak and I don't know how I will deal with it then.
I hope this won't come. If I have a new years resolution it would to be improve myself, improve cooking skills and skills that I feel that would be useful for myself and for locking in my love.
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