Dislike???

I might be thinking too much again but this has been constantly on my mind. I feel like a lot of people around Ling doesn't like me. I know that his family isn't very fond of me though will I need them to be? Will this relationship last forever? Who knows. No one can see the future and it isn't something I should worry about now. 

Another thing I feel is that a person. . . more specifically a girl that Ling is friends with and seem quite close with doesn't like me. I can feel for one I had her as a friend on Skype before but know it shows a question mark on her status, which I am guessing that it means she deleted me. I don't know I feel like she doesn't like me and I feel it really strongly. I don't know why I worry cause it really doesn't matter if his friends like me or not it is him that I care about and whether he still likes me. But the problem is I feel a little bit competitive. I know she is a good gamer and I need to be better so I can play by his side and spend as much time I have with him. But my gaming skills are not that great and I know that whatever I do, chances are I won't beat her. However I will still try. 

I don't know. I don't like this feeling of being disliked. I was aim to make everyone please at least to the ones I care about the most. There is just something that bothers me. I don't know. 

I also found out that Ling doesn't keep up to date with my blog as often as I thought, though when I mention about my blog he would read. Which means the post I wrote about ages ago about worrying is my why of showing love is not seen by him and is probably the one I really wanted him to see but also the one I worry about the most if he does see it. . .