Can you see someone differently if they have changed? After experiencing traumatising events involving a specific person can you still see them differently if they changed?
Maybe I am being stubborn or my mind just cant erase the past but. . . what I seen him do back then would always remain in my head. I can't forgive and forget especially if this person can't completely repent for what he has done. I have no right to forgive and forget when the actually person involved can't do it.
I know many people experienced worst and to be honest I was just a bystander but think about it. As a kid when you see violence in the family what would happen psychologically. How would a young child perceive such events. He broke what could have been a happy family. He never rebuilt what he has destructed nor can the victims forgive him for what he has done. My family will always be torn in pieces.
It is this that makes me distant from him. It is this shattered family that keeps me running from this house. I don't wanna be at home cause I could be happier else where. But to me he is different. Different to the person that tore our family. . . well he still keeps the family apart but he is still different around me. . .
I don't know what I could do. What I should do. . . He confuses me so much. So much I can't grasp just yet. Why can't I piece together the one family I have? Should I just give up on it completely and make my own? Sigh~~~ I don't know
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