Reverting Back To The Real Me

You know, it just hit me on Thursday night how much I have changed over the years and I realised how self-centred and selfish I had become. This made me feel so horrible and devastated. You see Ling had a big issue happen at home that night and before I used to be so worried for his sake. I worried if he was ok and what is happening. I was just cared so much about him and it hurt me to see him in pain or depressed. But this time I thought 'Nooo, I am going to be alone the next day cause I can't see Ling and I wanna see Ling. I just neglected my love cause I thought of only myself.'

When I realised this, I saw how much I have changed. How bad I have become now? So from that night I decided to make a change, I need to turn myself back to my high school years, that more thoughtful and caring person that I was. Of course I can't go all the way back cause there are new things I need to pick up and use so that I can become a better person and girlfriend for my love.

We dated 3 years and to be honest, not matter how many flaws he has I can't help but stay in love with him. I love him so much that I can't stop thinking about him. I sort of feel like our relationship has turn for the better these days almost like our high school years when we were infatuated with each other. It isn't complete like that but when I am with him I feel that way.

So recently I have made a changed, Ling even agrees though I still had some parts that hadn't changed but it was much better. I know Ling was happy during the times when I was around. But I can't just stop here I must improve and develop our relationship high and better until we are inseparable. ^.^ We are both gonna change ourselves to be better for each other. I hope. . .