Development of Personalities

I realised it is very interesting in understanding how you develop you own personality and values. I believe your parents, surroundings, siblings and friends have big contributions to how you turn out as a person. In my uni study of educational psychology, I discovered a infants first experiences are crucial in how they would eventually turn out.

I am have strong feeling that due to my parents working a lot back then and left me with a nanny who didn't really look after me or nurture me. From what I gather my mum, she said I usually hid underneath a table while she play mah-jong with her friends. These kind of actions may have result in my insecurities and how introverted I am. But it isn't to say that it has a big contributions to it to.

But it is important that you provide as many positive experiences to your baby and give it the attention and love it needs and maybe that child will end up being much more opened in the future. I don't know but as I think about these things I feel that everything that I seen in my family, they arguing and other things they have done made me to be who I am and to be honest I am not that please with the outcome.

But is hard to make yourself open up and start talking to random people cause to me I have nothing interesting to tell or and hobbies that I love to do that I may be able to use. I am socially not experienced and feel like such a young kid that I feel that I won't be able to fit in with people my age now. . .

Ok I have no idea what I am trying to get at anymore. . .

I guess I am trying to say is that, I wanna have a happy family and provided my child with the necessary experiences so that she wouldn't turn out like me. I hope that she would be open and make lots of friends and never get hurt by anyone. I would like her to have many social experiences so she understands how people are and she could be smart in the friends she make or the people she choose to be with. I wish I was able to turn out to be someone more open and less. . . me, I guess.

Sigh,  I don't know what I am saying but I do know I wish I was more of any extravert, someone open and more social able.