Friendless

Talking to Ling and he made me realise something. I think I have lost another friend, not in the same way but as time goes on our relationship would grow further and further apart. She was the 2nd person that I was closet to but then she always believe that she would lose contact with high school friends and make friends in Uni. Now she has made friends in Uni and I feel that slowly since we don't contact each other often or friendship will soon fade into nothing.

If I lose my best friend, then it would be like I made no friends in high school whatsoever and I would only have my family friends R.Z and A.Z. I am worried that I would lose them to especially with one of them cause on family things and if I lose her too it would hurt so much cause she is the longest friend I have ever had. I don't wanna lose her ever and R.Z but they have their own friends and it just feels like that I might just lose them in the end too.

If  I lose all my friends, all I have is Ling but if things don't work out with him. I have no one, one at all and just got my thinking how my sister use to be like you have no friends and no one likes you and things like that. I knew she was joking back them but it feels like it is true. Maybe I am just thinking too much but one thing Ling said might be true is that friends come and go. I just really want the ones I cherish the most to stay with me forever. Please Please don't leave me guys. Don't leave me alone. TT^TT