My last lecture I found out that even animals choose love than our necessities. The lecture mention about an experiment on a baby monkey with 2 surrogate robot mother, one that is wrapped in a soft cloth while is made out of steel and provides food. The study show that the monkey prefers to cling on the surrogate robot mother that provided it with warmth and only lean towards the mother that provided food when the baby monkey was hungry.
The reason I am talking about this is cause my dad thinks that my sister and I should be close to my dad cause hey he took care of us. When I say took care of us he was the one who earn the sole income and he was the one that provided us with shelter, food, water all that we need to live. But from what I learn that isn't what you do if you want someone to be close to you. Even animals know who to stay next to when they want to feel warmth or love. Cause you can't just give someone food or money and say love me cause I provided you with material you need to survive.
Love can not be brought or bribed and if someone can be bribed it isn't cause they love you it is cause they need the food or money and they love it cause it provides them with what they want. Love is something you gain by using your heart. Love is knowing someone cares for you, loves you, protects you and will do anything in their power just to make you happy.
My dad isn't a good parent. He is not a good father. He is a good supplier and that's all. He provided me with food, money, clothing shelter and all the wants and needs when I was younger. For him that was his love yet I don't feel close to him and I don't feel like he understands me. My mum on the other hand is a great mum and I could say one of the best. Yes she cooks for me and provides me with food but she loves me and I can feel that love unlike my dad. My mum loves makes me feel happy and at ease. My mum makes me feel cared for and that I have someone that would always stay with me regardless of what I do and what happens to me.
It a similar feeling I get from Ling, it isn't the present he gives me, it is his love, his care and his everything that makes me feel so loved and happy.
My dad just doesn't understand anything and thinks he does. I'm not sure if he loves me part of me thinks so but part me of feels that maybe all he is doing is bribing me so that in the future he has someone to take care of him. I shouldn't think like that but at times it really feels like that is the case.
I guess my main point is. There is a point in celebrating mother's day despite what my dad had said today. Because for me, my mum has been giving love to me every since I was born even though I brought her so much pain when I came into this world and other pains throughout my life. But in the end I know she loves and cares for me more than she does for herself. I know maybe not all mum's are like that and I know some people may have not experience a mothers love for what ever reason it is. But I need to say:
Happy Early Mother's day, Mum
thank you for the 19 years of love you have given me and
thank you for many more years of love you would give me.
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