I was reading Beautiful's Blog just a while ago and it sort of made me feel like I am a bad girlfriend or more a less caring girlfriend. I don't wanna make her feel bad or anything but it sort of those cause the thoughts of how she would try and spend as much time with him as possible makes me feel like I don't do enough.
But then again for Ling and I, we usually have to spend at least 3-4 days together and it does make it hard to spend time with friends and family for me. Another thing is he loves me to stay late at his house or even sleep over which is hard cause of how strict my dad is and mum if she knew I was going to sleep over at ling's house.
I feel that, I am not a good enough girlfriend cause I clingy to Ling so much that I love to have skype calls with me every single night and he doesn't wanna at times and I feel bad. I did though tell him we don't have to once but I think that idea went out the window since he still calls me every night. I don't initiate somethings we do which he wants me to. . . Sigh, Ling sometimes tells me these things and it makes me feel bad and depressed. He then expects me to do something about it right away but I don't feel like at the time cause of my mood he doesn't understand that at times.
Sigh. . . I believe Beautiful is a better girlfriend in the way that she initiates a lot more things than I do though I do feel that Ling seems to be hard to please then her BF but I know that I am not as initiative than her. . . haha I should stop comparing. . . >.< Well. . .
I Love Ling more than anything in the world and if I could I would wanna spend every minute and every second with him but I know I can't. I gotta spend time with my mum she needs me it isn't like she has anyone else so go spend time with at the moment considering our family situation. I wanna spend time with friends too. I don't wanna lose touch with them. . . Sigh so much things and so hard to balance. . .
Oh well. . . I really miss Ling right now.
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