So today, I went on a triple date kind of thing. There was Y.L and her BF, Beautiful and her Special Someone and Ling and I. All couples. It felt like my fanfics where I had the 3 of us together with our love ones spending time with each other. I felt happy and almost like I accomplished something from my bucket list of something like that. I looked into it my deeper more deeper into my thoughts of our relationships and more specifically my relationship.
It was cute looking at Y.L and Beautiful with their love ones acting all lovey dovey and cute together while I felt me and Pat kept our distance a bit more and didn't show how much we loved each other as they did. In the past I would have felt a little upset cause I would like to have done the same and show that we are just as sweet and cute together like they are. I have always been a little competitive, wanting show off things like Ling and I guess. . . I am slightly over it. I don't feel jealous or envious cause I know where Ling and I are isn't completely different to how they are together. We don't show how much we love each other in front of our friends cause we don't want to make things awkward or make other people around us feel awkward though we might a few times cause. . . I like it I guess. . .
I have date Ling for almost 3 years, so much has happened and we have been through so much. Maybe that is what makes a difference in our relationship (I know I shouldn't compare. . . which I don't think this is really it. . . ) who knows. . . I don't feel the need to show off me and Ling anymore. I love him and I don't need other people to know it anymore. I just want Ling to know it and I just want us to be together and cute together regardless if anyone sees it or not. I guess this is what I have gained from 2015 through all the ups and downs. Haha. . . What I am saying makes me think of the 'Friends' the tv series where Monica wants to be the hottest couple and more hotter couple than Phoebe was with her cop Boyfriend. >v<
Anyway, if I say my new resolution for 2016 is to become more independent if I can achieve is a difficult question. But I don't wanna be so clingy anymore. I don't wanna rely on skype calls with Ling to fall asleep and I wanna be able to sleep even without his calls even though I love to sleep with him on a call cause it makes me feel closer to him just like me being next to him. Another thing I wanna be able to not argue for no reason with Ling like I have in the past. So far it has been 2 weeks since my last random argument at least from what I remember. I wanna also build my independence away from home start listening to what I want instead of pleasing my Dad and mum. . . this is gonna be hard and I have doubts I can do it but I need to start figuring it out. I wanna be able to stay late with Ling be with him, go on trips with him and live with him. I guess that is what I wanna achieve. for 2016.
Added Note and a little Late but. . .
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE
HOPE A GREAT YEAR IS COMING FOR YOU AND
YOU CAN ACHIEVE ANY OF YOUR NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS.
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