Tease

I have been thinking a lot, today. I mention this before, but for me to think a lot is usually not a good sign. It means I will worry and when I worry I tend to over think things that has a very low chance of happening. Can't say it won't cause there is always a small percentage that it would. The point is I am just overviewing somethings that been bothering me.

I saw Ling, today I wonder around Westifield with him so that he could buy some stationary that he needed. He teased me a lot but that is normal and I grown to get use to it. But you know teasing me has a limit and he nearly pushed me over the limit. I manage to maintain it and just let it go but now I am just thinking over what had happened today.

You know during my Studies of Religion class, we had to combine with other classes. The teacher called my name and I said here. After my name was called I heard someone sang couple of words of the a child cartoon that contained my name. I wasn't to upset about at first and sort of just brushed it off. When Ling today went past a product that had the cartoon on it he was like "Do you want this?" Again I brushed it off and playfully hit him with my blazer. He did tease me a bit after which I just kept brushing it off and sort or pretend I cared but not really at the same time.

Truthfully, I can some teasing but just don't over do it. The cartoon tease was annoying and that is why I had used to hate my name until I realised it also meant gift which sort of brought a silver lining. I am sort of sensitive in what people call me and I care a lot about what people call me. A few things that immediately irritate me would be sing the theme song of that cartoon and some calling me "Dodo." There is one person I don't mind calling me "Dodo" my sister and now she doesn't call me that often. There is one friend of mine who I rarely talk to who also calls me this and it really annoys me. When I told her I don't like she sort of doesn't listen. .  . I don't understand why should wouldn't stop calling me that. I don't see her often and probably won't see her often as she is younger than me and is only a bus friend. I was much closer to her sister who was one year older and had caught the bus with her for 4 years.

So that is one thing that sort of upset me today. There is other things that are bothering me but I have been suppressing all my thoughts and all that sadness which I can feel a bit. So now, I don't know what I am feeling and I don't know what is exactly bothering me. In a way, if I don't know then I should not worry or care about it but that isn't how I work. I tend to just keep feeling that way until it goes away.

I don't know.

So much is going around in my head. But I shall be happy cause tomorrow I can see my friends and hang out with them which is something we haven't done in a while. I can't wait.