When the Lion returns in which I mean my father, the house is turned upside down. Not always I must admit but often. Today, the minute my dad step in the door, I could hear arguments breaking out and I am trying to study upstairs. It is just so distracting.
My dad is just like a lion, when angering it brings shockwaves of unimaginable things that would take place. On good days when the lion is calmer, the house is at peace a bit more what is better is when the Lion is not at home. The atmosphere immediately lifts and the house hold becomes a much happier place. No arguments, No distractions. Just peace and quiet. A warm wonderful home. My mum had once told me that "Every time it is close to the time he comes home, I start to stress and the house becomes or tense" in fact she had told me this more than once. ( I don't actually know if I translated this right but it is basically what she is trying to point out)
Why must arguments take place the moment he comes home? I use to be able to block it out but I fear that this is slowly beginning to fade once again. I don't want to break down like I did before I am scared to go back to state once more and worried that my friends will get worried again. I rely on them to much and don't give enough back.
I need to find a way to block these arguments out again cause I don't want to feel that worry for my parents and the fear that something horrible would happen. I experienced it too many times before. I shall go back try block things out and concentrate on my studies. *phew* I think I am calming down a little bit after this rant.
Lets hope the tonight would be a peaceful one.
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