So much things has happened last night and like a storm it all blows over. However one thing is still left in the remains the destruction caused by the violent storm.
Well what is left behind is the fear and worries of what is to come. I wish that this calm serenity can remain while the lion is away. What I fear is more arguments would follow after such events that has happened the past night. The lion rest in his den still seeing red. The silent cheers of peace befalls the household however only to feel the fear of what may follow when the lion returns after his long day of hunting.
The Lion as I have mentioned in a few of my other blogs is my dad. He stands tall and listens to no one no matter if what he says is wrong or not. Everything has to go his way. Last night both my parents were still angry about the argument before. My dad seems to be looking for more fight while my mum decided to stay silent and ignore everything my dad was saying. Thankfully this brings a little peace for me however now I fear that once he returns he would again begin his rage. I don't want to go through yesterday again. I want this household to have a peaceful environment. What wishful think though I lived through this my whole life. Hoping that this would all end and my parents will finally stop there bickering.
After this storm not only does fear remain but the power for me to start growing up. Excepting that this is my family that I can't choose to have a peaceful family but I can now deal with it. I need live my own life no matter how much argument about my future may rise I would not back down from what I really want to do (which I have no idea yet). I will choose my own future and I will leave this place for one that shall give me the peace that I have longed for. But for now, I must deal with it and watch out for what is to come.
Lets pray that once the Lion returned, the peace will still remain.
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