Low self-esteem

I have been over thinking again today which seems normal cause I do nearly every single day however today it is a little bit more often. I know, I have a low self-esteem and not a lot of confidence and I have quite a few fears and worries but I want to change all this.

I was texting D.H on the way home like we always do after school as both of us travel home by ourselves and it does become quite lonely. I had discussed with her about my worries while she comforted me and told me to trust in myself, confirming somethings I do know. I have to thank D.H she had lightened up my spirits not all the way but close enough. So Thank you so much D.H, I know that I can trust you and that you would nearly always be there for me. (^.^)

Anyway I decided to ask my mum about my worries and from what I said she had told me that I can get easily hurt. She knows from my personality that I will get hurt and I don't disagree with her cause I know that when I fall than I will fall hard. My mum told me be more conservative and keep myself safe from harms way. She doesn't want me to be so closed that I shy away from arrive thing that could possible harm me but closed enough that I wouldn't get hurt as easily. However it is easier said than done. It is hard to keep myself from worrying and fearing the worst even though chances are that what I  am worrying about would never happen.

Worrying and fearing the worst allows me to be prepared and not fall as hard as I would normally. But I need to stop thinking like that enjoy my life, enjoy my unknown future. I need to live life. *Phew* I will take small steps at a time until reach the day I finally can stop worrying as much as I do and be more confident. I need to believe and trust in myself and my abilities. ^.^
Bye-bees~